Soft-hearted

Just too soft-hearted!!!

Thinking about it, so am I somehow. Otherwise, why still outstanding?

301

301 is not the latest Levis design. What button fly, zipper fly or can't fly. This just so happen to be the 301st post! Cannot imagine that I have been rambling so much since I started already. Really interested to see the different thought patterns when I look back at the posts at the end of this year. Will I remember the same things the same way as I wrote them?

Played badminton today! It was nice though there were only four of us. Good workout for everybody. Well, at least for me, since I perspire super easily. I think I need to get a better racquet soon. The one that I am using is really taking the life out of me just to hit the shuttlecock to the middle of the next court. Quite like the one that Joan lent me the last time. Light, strong and cheap! Hahaha...

Unexpectedly went for dinner with Jessica after! Hahaha, she offered to send me home if I paid her my bus fare! That is a good deal. Alina is unable to convince her to drive to JB even with a promise of seafood there. Hahaha. Good thing I stay in Singapore :op Well, we headed to IKEA for dinner first and I managed to tempt Jessica with one chix wing! Roast chix with chix wing. She is really wiping out that species... It was nice to be chauffeured home after. :o)

Tomorrow is interview day. All the best to the candidates tomorrow. Two bengs conducting interviews might not be a good thing. But then again, we are such nice people. You never know. I doubt I will be asking much, but have to see how it goes. Stuck in the same room with the same person for the whole day though. Funny that we were chatting about a fan club for him today. Hahaha, I was enjoying the conversation on pop. These girls are one funny lot. Jowin can still say only short of one ticket for redemption to be with him. Cannot take it.......

Hope that everyone can join in the session next week. I am sure we will have a lot of fun! Gonna miss Alina...

Ah Qing look nice in that blouse lah... hee... all thanks to me right? Wahahahaha...

Wonder if there is chance for shopping tomorrow... Hmm...

Specially For You

Tomorrow morning if you wake up,

And the sun does not appear,

I will be here.
If in the dark we lose sight of love,

Hold my hand and have no fear,

'Cause I will be here.

I will be here when you feel like being quiet.

When you need to speak your mind,

I will listen.

And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying.

Through the winning, losing, and trying, we'll be together,

'Cause I will be here.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up,

And the future is unclear,

I will be here.

As sure as seasons are made for change,

Our lifetimes are made for years,

So I will be here.

I will be here, and you can cry on my shoulder.

When the mirror tells us we're older,

I will hold you.

And I will be here to watch you grow in beauty.

And tell you all the things you are to me,

I will be here.

I will be true to the promise I have made,

To you and to the One who gave you to me.

What Matters Most

"What matters most is what should be done and not what you get from doing."

-- Prawnkid Productions

You Took My Heart Away

Michael Learns To Rock cheesy hit. People crinch at such cheesy hits and yet say them to their loved ones. Ha. Joey would probably love this, simply because it is Michael Learns To Rock. I hope you still love this band which I introduced years back. (Or you prefer Chris Tries To Rock still?)

Anyhow, I hope to say the same to my future other half. It takes two to become one.

Staring at the moon so blue

Turning all my thoughts to you

I was without hopes or dreams

Try to dull an inner scream

But you . . . saw me through . . .

Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone

You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Living in a world so cold

You were there to warm my soul

You came to mend a broken heart

You gave my life a brand new start

And now . . . I 'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Holding your hands I won't fear tomorrow

Here where we stand

We'll never be alone

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

You become the meaning of my life . . .

You become the meaning

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Faith

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

- Hebrews 11:1

For you.

Trust me.

It will happen (naturally).

Just a matter of time.

Cherish whatever there is till then.

Priceless.

The Ah Qing Celebration 2

Finished with the Mortons dinner and decided to take a walk. Otherwise Ah Qing might start to plan some 40 laps marathon swimming again. Stopped midway across the bridge towards Merlion. Ah Qing wanted to take a picture specially for Josh. No surprises that she wanted Josh to notice her trademark signature move.

Finally got one decent shot after a million tries! Can see her tired look by now. Hahaha. It's been a long day out for us since work in the morning.

The final shot for the day! Clock struck midnight halfway on the walk back. I am the first to wish her Happy Birthday!!! Wow, then the millions of messages started to beep on her phone. I wonder if anyone remembers my birthday the same way. Hahaha......

Ended up chatting at her place again and she wanted to go Ubin too! We took so long to decide on the details. Hahaha. If only it did not rain...then we would really have gone to check out Chek Jawa which is newly opened. Gotta plan it again one of the weekends.

I hope Ah Qing had a good time and enjoyed her birthday this year :o)

The Ah Qing Celebration 1

Decided to celebrate the birthday of goodest friend Ah Qing! According to her, she has multiple celebrations with all her different friends. Sounds more like an entire month celebration really. Any excuse for her to eat cake is a good excuse I guess. Well, some changes to plans and ended up waiting for her to fashion show her various outfits for the dinner. Good thing the reservation was held for us. Mortons seem pretty popular even for a weekday.

Had a picture start! (That's quite a lot of wine to drink.......)

The place has quite a nice setting, though it can be pretty noisy with a full crowd. A personal waiter will come and present the entire menu, even with a live lobster. He left us to play with it for a while. Heh. It's nice to have a same waiter giving personalised attention throughout dinner actually. He was a nice chap that did not look 36 too!

That's me posing with the appetizer! It was a nice huge bread serving to be Ah Qing's birthday bread :o) It was a really really nice bake actually. She was thinking how to smuggle it home for personal enjoyment...

The Bread Cutting Ceremony!!! Happy Be-Earlied Birthday to Ah Qing!

Warned by Josh about her universal peace sign poses, Ah Qing did a change for the night. Rather than the conventional cake slice for birthday, she got the famous chocolate cake (with chocolate filling) and vanilla ice-cream! She would finish this even with a full stomach...

Dinner was really fulfilling there which took almost 3 hours! But it was fun! Chatting and chatting and chatting and eating and eating. All the unexpected jokes. Hee...she is one funny girl.

Thoughts

Ended up sleeping at 0530hrs this morning. Woke up at 0730hrs to prepare for work. Been listening to tons and tons of music. Some for different purposes. It's amazing how the preferences can be so diversified.

"Availability may provide leverage but not necessary an advantage."

Hmmm....unexpected familiar feeling....

The Missing Long Nights

The lack of seasons, the missing long nights.

It's 0430hrs. Should sleep soon.

Thinking: Hmmm....

Licence To Wed

Met the Extraordinary Gentlemen at Settlers Cafe (Katong) last night. Seems that the one in Clarke Quay may be slightly better. Probably because it is on the second level. But well. Played a couple of new games. We really wanted Ah Lau dead pointing the guns at him so many times. Hahaha...

Timing was too rush to catch the fireworks. I figured that the anticipated jam will make us rush, get stuck and just miss out on the actual fireworks. That would have made the mood lousier than knowing that we were not going at all. Could not have dinner there early since both of us had plans before the movie. So.......maybe should go catch the musical fountain instead. hahaha...

Caught Licence To Wed with goodest fren! Awww...I actually thought we were watching the show with the two guys pretending to be gay and getting married. That was Chuck & Larry! Hahaha, so I actually watched a different movie from my expectations. Anyhow, it started a little promising, then it became a little "trying too hard" to be funny. Not a great movie...but well...never know till you watch it for yourself! Maybe we should have gone KTV instead...hmmm...wonder if I need to get earplugs first :op

Went for lunch today with SJ & Reb, Matt, Pat & Grace. Ichiban Boshi! Matt treat again! Dunno why, but we appreciated it after he kept rejecting our offers to split the bill. Should have gone Kuishinbo then....wahahahaha....SJ & Reb were sharing their trip to Spain...Pat was sharing about his intention to go Japan...Matt & me were just eating :o) Why can't they focus on the main objective? :op

No nice jigsaw puzzles. I doubt I will be looking anymore for a while. Passion for fixing dropping for a while. Maybe when I really think of something to fill up that space just at bedside. I had to see that pair of NIKE shoes......does not help with Grace and Matt giving the various reasons why I should buy it. Shall resist it now until it keeps bugging me.......my reason to them is overspending for this month (like I care :op), so should wait till next payday. Then on thinking, that is tomorrow! Wahahahahahahaha..........

Work Attitude

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."
-- Colossians 3:23-24

Uppy Downy Uppy Week

This week went past pretty fast. Quite a number of things happening. Ups and downs and ups. And yet only within a week!

Anyhow, looks like the way ahead is going to see a number of changes. People moving ahead. Work scope moving ahead. Relationships moving ahead. I have a new goodest friend! Wahahaha...quite a dangerous one though...a lot of different attacking moves (and weapons)...

Suddenly everybody is looking for mahjong kakis. Hahaha...well, hope that means more chance to play the game. Trying to learn more different styles and flexibility.

Looks like I need to make some changes to travel plans. Might make a long one in the next month or two. Time to make some connections again...

Gingerbread Birthday!

Two groups of lunch kakis celebrated the birthday of Gingerbread (aka Jowin) today! By celebrating, they mean carving their own piece of nibbles from her cake! Never even sing her birthday song one!!! How can like that?!

Josh was determined to finish his cheesecake. I think it should be called The BlueWobbly Cheesecake. Wins said it reminds of the failed X-Men experiment. Just thinking about it is gross. Slimy... yucks! Siao Char Bor is smartest of whole group. Just order her vampire tea and then snacked off everyone's plates! Hmmm......picked on my food still keep saying why I don't dare to eat the section she robbed... "Why? I got sickness is it?"

Actually it was great fun that all of us went out. Though lunch is always a little too rushed. Maybe we can go for dinner together sometime. Tomorrow would be a good chance for a smaller group dinner after the badminton. Maybe East Coast Hawker Centre? I hope Josh remembers that badminton is played differently from tennis. Bet he will be tempted to throw the shuttlecock into the air and smash it over the net.

For a moment, did think about Alina "deserting" us. Just when we were all getting along! :o( I'm sure we'll keep in touch somehow, but just not the same. Will miss her giggling in the canteen. Hahaha... And I hope she is still considering getting me a friendship ring! Wahahaha...... my precious.........

Was a little late in pickup today due to some unforseen jam. Which also means that I was spared from one errand! Wahahahaha...would have gladly gotten it though. Next time should say earlier mah! (It's actually dangerous to offer freebies, might get a million arrows on my back! :op)

I'm a little surprised to see the effort to want to communicate more recently by the two of them with me. But it is a good thing. Maybe this will produce a fresher environment for a while.

In good spirits today lah..............should sleep well (again!)

My Defensive Good Friend

I am now sitting behind a defensive siao char bor. Suspecting a certain emotion I have or atmosphere I am trying to create for simple messages. Can see that she is struggling with entries into her blog. Probably as stress as trying to cramp all her notes into one single A4 piece of paper double-sided. I never knew of any humans reading font size 4 until she appeared.

Anyway, situation seems much better now after some "thrashing" out. I think it is good to communicate more. It would be crap to face a possible repeat of an entire lousy day. But somehow past few days were pretty.......stressful, uneasy...... basically felt there is a barrier of some sort.

Can't say I love the responses and the way they were put plainly to me, but at the same time feel better for the situation. Can breathe easier.

Asked more about NZ trip today. Probably get more information tomorrow from Ben. The idea of visiting the glacier seems good. Wonder if this will really happen. All depends on the others now...

Explanation Not Required

There was never a need to explain. I knew it all along.

But if not now, then maybe never.

A Walk To Remember

3 hours. The usual. Was out and about. Sat beside Pat & wife. Thought about some stuff. Saw and felt what I didn't like. How did it come to this? It was all bright and blue before and then now it seems like a drag. Should I do anything at all or leave it to be sorted? Just keep thinking I should be the one. Haiz. Made our separate ways since I was going to Bugis to get some stuff. I needed a walk.

It seemed like there was a purpose. I have not gone for a walk for a long time. It felt like I had an agenda. I kind of did anyway. The route was just way shorter this time. Somehow not willing for this to be the walk. Am surprised that I did make the detour to satisfy the craving. But it was not worth it at all. Felt worse. Crap. It's time for them to get fresher victims.

Got distracted to shop for a waist pouch while I was browsing. Did not get one, but ended up staring at that same pair again. I bet it is a female cut, though it looks unisex. No one served after 5 minutes. I walked out. No urge to pull me back, so maybe it's not a strong want. But I might not have a choice soon. Why did I have to think about all these within such a short period of time?

Supposed to get my contacts. Walked right into Time Club instead. One look. Two looks. Three looks. Walk away. Return look. Tried the white. Asked the variants. Tried the black. Decided on the white. Done deal in 5 minutes. What got into me? Not so sure. But something flashed when I browsed the top row. I remembered something. But I know I cannot be doing everything. Sometimes it irritates more than it impresses. Already it is inclining so.

Got a pretty good deal for the contacts from Eric. He serves patiently as usual. Visits there without Amelda is always shorter. Otherwise I have to wait for her to try out all the frames in that shop. Credit to her for being able to carry almost every single frame off though. And I bet I've gotten quite a number of good deals already. Have ruled Lasik out after long deliberation. Didn't like the strong reason why I should not do it. Crap. Felt lousy when it comes to this. So I guess I will be shopping for contacts now and then. Quite a number of activities are naturally filtered out. Like it or not.

Prawn Ultimatum tomorrow. Unexpected win.

Went for a run. A must. Because I cannot take it anymore. Even if it was in the rain and thunder. Felt it both sides. Thought I noticed one side. First thought "YOU ARE KIDDING ME". I guess there is a certain level of questioning even if I am not bothered somehow.

Don't feel good about it. I might just give up tomorrow. See how it goes.

Shopaholic?

I am not a usual shopper. Hardly spend on myself is probably not enough to describe. Rarely would be more appropriate. In cases where I finally decide to buy something, it is after long considerations. Of course, this means that I sometimes end up buying big ticket items (eg. house, car, camera, etc.)

So I am surprised that I actually spent $431 in a matter of two weeks. And not on a single expensive item. Not that I took long to think about buying the stuff too. I hope I do not turn into a shopaholic. Hahaha, though I just have to compare with Tingie and I should be well into the safety zone of thrifty :op

Anyway, I guess they are spent on stuff that I would use. So that should be a good justification. Holding back on buying the rollerblades does make it feel a little better. (Like real... think I just did not find a pair that I like). Aiyah, money is earned for spending anyway. As long as I am not spending more than I am earning, I should be safe! Saving seems on target anyway.

Funny how I think it is ok and go on trying to reason to myself that it is really ok. Spending a lot on myself is really not a norm...

Well, at least I am the proud owner of something that I bought in 5 minutes!

New Zealand

Let's go ahead with the New Zealand plan as scheduled then. I need some time to look into the itinery.

Yes, I really wish you to come along.

Magnet

My answer.

Opposite poles attract.