07/07/07

Special date for a lot of people.

I finally did it today.

Not excited. Surprising?

It's gonna be a prized possession though.

I am one step nearer.

Some areas still lacking. What????

Feeling

The same kind of fear for the last few days. Not very good. It can't wait. This week will have to be it. It's not worth feeling the same way walking down that path all the time.

Discipline

Drive

Determination

Desperation?

Today is supposed to be a happy day for lots of people with the receipt of bonus. I don't even monitor my monthly paycheck. So I guess it is no surprise that I won't know until people around me were talking about it. Not monitoring finance or being bothered about getting $$$ has nothing to do with whether a person have too much money or not really. I would be happy if the reason was so simplistic. Mindset can be changed with some effort. Finance is archived and viewed differently in me. (Probably for many other things too.)

Level of significance is not proportional to the ease of exploitation.

Life

Resign to it. Give up on it. Enjoy it to the fullest. Make the best of it. What comes...comes.

Same gift, different experience.

Some have it and want to end it. Some are ending it and want to prolong it. If only they could exchange? Irony.......irony........and it is not just a Swatch series.....

What do you want me to say to you? You already chose your own path and yet you are unhappy about it. What about those that did not get to choose? And I'm expected to say stuff that people expect me to say. Whatever happen to "say your mind"?

Expectations

Suddenly thought about it and stuck in those thoughts for a while. Need to ask some hard questions to find out more. It seems my mental expectations were pretty high and yet practically I did not feel very disturbed knowing such information.

Maybe that is why some people choose not to know everything. The lesser you know, the lesser the expectations. However, innocence might not equate bliss. It might always be a time bomb.

But what happens when all is known? Do things stay the same? Perceptions change with the amount of information available. How important is perception if it is ever-changing then?

The beauty of life is the journey. The lack of it makes even the bad parts worth.

Queen

Queen....the band! Meant this post for Germz actually...she loves Queen. Ha! They did quite a good version of Queen here.

Stomp

Redbean

Just where are you?

Game

Atom gave me a modular power supply. It was that damn good. So my system is up again and I can blog. Managed to logon to Club 7 for a brief while too. I guess I am not that easily wiped off from the team yet.

Electrician coming for more major work on the power supply and also a possible TV point in my room. After more than four years of not watching TV, I wonder if I will get used to start. But well, it is definitely a good time to start packing everything proper and even sorting out my HDD. I have been living in a mess for too many years.

Really need to stop procrastinating about everything.

I must and I will want to make a decision on Saturday!!!