Feeling

The same kind of fear for the last few days. Not very good. It can't wait. This week will have to be it. It's not worth feeling the same way walking down that path all the time.

Discipline

Drive

Determination

Desperation?

Today is supposed to be a happy day for lots of people with the receipt of bonus. I don't even monitor my monthly paycheck. So I guess it is no surprise that I won't know until people around me were talking about it. Not monitoring finance or being bothered about getting $$$ has nothing to do with whether a person have too much money or not really. I would be happy if the reason was so simplistic. Mindset can be changed with some effort. Finance is archived and viewed differently in me. (Probably for many other things too.)

Level of significance is not proportional to the ease of exploitation.