Christmas

Melli Quismus!

It all started with the company celebration on Friday and me winning $20 NTUC voucher! Wahahaha, a DVD player the year before and now some vouchers to buy rice!

Since then it is a period of mushroom cultivation for me at home. I can do that till 3 January 2007 when I finally go back to work and start training in my new position! Learning everything from my colleague, fresh from his honeymooning in Japan. Coolz!

Still raining everyday. Been eating tons! That is probably part of Christmas, or maybe part of my lifestyle (more like it).

The Square on 23rd, Curry Fish Head on Xmas, Vienna tonight......

I'm so going to roll from place to place now........

Favourite Bond

Bond...

Which is my favourite Bond?

This one.

Lunch & Dinner

Just came back from great lunch and dinner. Shiok and shacked.

Thanks guys for the celebration. Now I can start to understand your feelings of a 30 year old.

Hehehe...

Visionaries

Saw all 13 episodes again after ALL these years. Those were the days where you hear people memorising the lines. Even reading these quotes bring back those days.....

"Oh mist-filled pits, dark, dank, unclear, Touch all before me with frost-fingered fear!"

- Cravex (Spell of Fear)

"The arrows turn,the swords rebel, let nothing pierce this mortal shell!"

- Lexor (Spell of Invulnerability)

"By what creeps,what crawls, by what does not, Let all that grows recede and rot!"

- Darkstorm (Spell of Decay)

"Power of rot, obscuring truth, What once was old restore to youth."

- Darkstorm (Spell of Youth)

"By nature's hand, by craft, by art, What once was one now fly apart!"

- Cindarr (Spell of Destruction)

"Whispered secrets of a shattered age, I summon you: renew this sage!"

- Leoric (Spell of Wisdom)

"A whim, a thought, and more is sought. Awake my mind; Thy will be wrought!"

- Arzon (Spell of Knowledge)

"Sheathe these feet in the driving gale, Make swift these legs o'er land I sail!"

- Witterquick (Spell of Speed)

"Three suns aligned, pour forth their light, and fill the archer's bow with might!"
- Cryotek (Spell of Might)

League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen

One night of mahjong, one day of rest

Tomorrow's the day, it'll be the best

From kid to boy to man

The league of extraordinary gentlemen

-- Prawnkid Productions

I'll see you guys tomorrow :o)

Forever Young

3 more hours....and I am listening to Alphaville's Forever Young!!!!!!!

Forever Young - Alphaville

Let's start in style, let's dance for a while

Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies

Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst

Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

Let us stay young or let us live forever

We don't have the power, but we never say never

Sitting in the sandpit, life is a short trip

The music's for the sadman

Can you imagine when this race is won

Turn out all the faces into the sun

Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune

The music's played by the madman

Forever Young

I want to be Forever Young

Do you really want to live forever?

Forever, you'll never

Forever Young, I want to be Forever Young

Do you really want to live forever?

Forever Young.

Some are like water, some are like the heat

Some are a melody and some are the beat

Sooner or later they all will be gone

Why don't they stay young?

It's so hard to get old without a cause

I don't want to perish like a fading horse

Years like diamonds in the sun

And diamonds are forever

So many advantages given up today

So many songs we forgot to play

So many dreams swinging out of the blue

Oh let it come true

3-day Celebration

Should finish work on time today and start 3-day celebration towards the big 3.

Wahahahaha.......counting down the younger days.......

Wedding Anniversary

Parents celebrated their wedding anniversary with a huge buffet dinner including Debs and me. Debs was wondering whether to join them for dinner. Well.....OF COURSE!!!

Without their union, there would not be us. We are celebrating too!!!

(Actually.....any reason to eat is a good reason lah)

Rootaatee

Interview done.

Success.

New Year.

New Scope.

The First Commandment

The First Commandment

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind."

"To be commanded to love God at all, let alone in the wilderness, is like being commanded to be well when we are sick, to sing for joy when we are dying of thirst, to run when our legs are broken. But this is the first and great commandment nonetheless. Even in the wilderness -- especially in the wilderness -- you shall love him."

-- Frederick Buechner

Assumption : Life Should Be Fair

"And most heroes of the Old Testament (Abraham, Joseph, David, Elijah, Jeremiah, Daniel) went through trials much like Job's. For each of them, at times, the physical reality surely seemed to present God as the enemy. But each managed to hold on to a trust in him despite the hardships. In doing so, their faith moved from a 'contract faith' -- I'll follow God if he treats me well -- to a relationship that could transcend any hardship."

"I challenge you to go home and read again the story of Jesus. Was life 'fair' to him? For me, the cross demolished for all time the basic assumption that life will be fair."

-- Excerpts from "Disappointment With God" by Philip Yancey

Job Rotation

Applied for a job rotation last week which I am eligible for every two years according to my contract. Feel that I am ready for a change.

Should be able to handle something even more challenging and probably operational.

Interview scheduled next week.........

The Main Point Of Job

"We tend to think 'Life should be fair because God is fair.' But God is not life. And if I confuse God with the physical reality of life -- by expecting constant good health, for example -- then I set myself up for a crashing disappointment."

"God's existence, even his love for me, does not depend on my good health."

"If we develop a relationship with God apart from our life circumstances, then we may be able to hang on when the physical reality breaks down. We can learn to trust God despite all the unfairness of life. Isn't that really the main point of Job?"

-- Excerpts from "Disappointment With God" by Philip Yancey

The Big 3

Just returned from father's birthday dinner. Had so much that I thought even a buffet cannot fight.

Reminds me too....

My own big 3 is coming......

Use Your Heart, Not Your Brain

So it sinks in today. A habit probably developed into a character by now, but it does not give me any excuse not to try and change.

"You just talk too much fact and practical things instead of listening and giving more compassionate replies."

"You used your brain more than your heart."

Brief & Accurate

一言一重﹐千言無用

Chilli At The Side

Finally went to check out Grape Vine near my place with Angela. New place, new friend, good combo. At least can talk about the deco if I run out of topics! Ha...Anyway, communicating was pretty easy. But I was surprised at the unique serving style.

I ordered baked rice. Angela ordered Salmon with Chilli Soy Sauce. After 10 minutes, the waitress came out.

Waitress:

Do you want the salmon cooked with the chilli soy sauce or at the side?

Prawnkid (motioning to Angela):

(Thinking that they probably ask because chilli might be too hot for some)

Your dish, your choice.

Angela (to waiter):

What did you ask?

Waitress (repeating in super polite manner):

Do you want the salmon cooked with the chilli soy sauce or at the side?

Angela:

Oh, cooked with the chilli soy sauce is fine.

Waitress:

I don't think they can do that.

Prawnkid:

Huh? Then what are you trying to ask?

Angela:

Huh? Errrmmm...then at the side is ok.

After another 10 minutes, both our orders are served. Looks good and exactly like the pictures in the menu. I am impressed.

Angela (moving the salmon left and right):

Hmmm...where is the chilli?

Prawnkid (pointing at brownish sauce below fish):

I guess that's it. Says chilli soy sauce on menu.

Angela:

Oh.....soy sauce ah? Ok....

Finishing our meals.

Angela:

Hmmm...not very spicy mah. So funny, they ask whether cook with it or at the side, then say cannot cook with it. Hahaha...

THEN, we noticed a bottle of Tabasco sauce beside the plate.

Prawnkid:

Right. I think that is your chilli at the side actually. She literally put at the side of the plate.

Angela:

Huh? Chilli is use tabasco ah? Really at the side....hahaha....

That sums up my first time going out with Angela. Really sound like a twin sister of Yiling.......

Grape Vine

Good food (barring chilli at the side definition), good drinks, good chill out place, fantastic polite service. My kind of cafe concept :o)

Martial Arts Material

This week is an aching week, all because of that 18-hour sleep! Argh, I better stop taking those. Ache so badly that I decided to go along with my friend's recommended massage at People's Park. Took what seemed like a million years looking for the shop that his friend recommended, and got hogged by those bust popping ladies trying to lure us into their shops. I bet guys get raped in there. But anyway, could not find the exact shop and ended up at a traditional one that practices acupressure massage.

My friend went into his own room and I went into mine. We could hear what happened in each other's room. My friend was happily chatting with his masseur (lady that he cannot reject), while my masseur was determined to prove his knowledge of every acupoint and maybe his internal strength. I could hear and feel him breathing on my body as he press on the acupoints with EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF STRENGTH in him. Right, I could barely move, not to mention talk. Deep down I thought, if he can't soothe the ache, he was probably just trying to break my entire body, joints and all.

He finished by cracking both my full arms, THEN a conversation started.

Masseur:

Hmmm, do you practise boxing?

Prawnkid:

No.

Masseur:

Taekwondo? Karate?

Prawnkid:

No.

Masseur:

Martial arts from young perhaps?

Prawnkid:

NO. (I think he's been brainwashed learning acupoints really.)

Masseur:

Oh well, it's a pity. Your body is flexible (he twists my arms full 180 degrees for both) and would be very suitable to do it well. Too bad.

Prawnkid:

...

*thinking of smashing his head with a single stroke of Xiang Long Shi Ba Zhang*

I told my friend about it and he was laughing his head off at my encounter. I figured if I really knew martial arts, I would have used Quan Kun Da Nuo Yi and get out of there.

My friend had the cheek to ask if I wanna go back there again???!!!

Hear What We Wanna Hear

Suddenly remember a TV commercial on a father hearing comments about his son, who really really cannot make it playing tennis. But he automatically filters out the "not so nice" words and end up hearing that his son can be a future Andre Agassi. (An advert for a radio station.)

Well, sometimes people are like that. Sometimes I am like that. If we do not hear the things we want to hear, we reject it as wrong and we switch off listening.

Is that always right? Are we always right?

I don't think so. That is being stubborn. Will need tons of time to learn this lesson......

Sleeping Therapy

Was told that sleeping is good therapy. Think I overdid it. Slept 18hrs on Sunday!!! Now my neck, shoulders and back are aching.

Whoever tells me sleeping is good therapy......where did that come from???

Which?

Honda 8 Civic?

Mazda 3? 6?

Honda Integra?

Mark X?

Suzuki Swift?

3-door Rav 4?

Mini Cooper?

Evo IX?

Bus???

Offensive Angel

On the same day, I have two different people describing me.

One said I was offensive, and the other said I was an angel.

Right... Offensive Angel...

NEVER Beyond The Reach or Beyond The Need

"Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace. And your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace."

-- Jerry Bridges

Your grace is sufficient for me.

Home Alone

Need to remind myself of the stuff to do for staying alone!!!

Gotta feed the dog and the fishes

Feed the dog and fish

Dog and fish

Dog fish

Done.

Sleeping Holiday

Didn't work from Friday to today (Tuesday). A break that I slept and slept and SLEPT. Literally more than the total I slept in a week.

Needed a break to rest the body and that was what I gave it. Headache and sore throat from the haze, that was irritating.

Had backache today and need to massage it while lying on bed. Hope it does not stay. That is just as irritating.

Still feel zombie like...

Back to work tomorrow. Hope I remember my login password :op

Current Favourites

Not too bothered by what others think. My two current favourites...

Lee Hom Concert

Back from watching Lee Hom concert with Irene.

He is THAT good.

Thought it was interesting to see him play from one drum and progressing as the other pieces are added in by the stage crew.

One night demonstrated his talent to play guitar, keyboard, drums, piano, violin and erhu.

Next up.......Parachute Band.........

Believe In The Father COMPLETELY

"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"

-- Matthew 7 : 9 - 11

If I believe that my Father will provide for me, then the belief should be COMPLETE. It is inevitable to hear pangs of doubts or unbelief ringing in the head, but it is with the faith and strength through the Holy Spirit in me that I know and can assert my victory.

All was conquered on that cross. Now's the time to claim that victory.

A Conquest From Within

"Jesus, who could destroy Jerusalem with a word, who could call down legions of angels to force subjection, instead looks over the city and weeps."

"God holds back; he hides himself; he weeps. Why? Because he desires what power can never win. He is a king who wants not subservience, but love. Thus, rather than mowing down Jerusalem, Rome, and every other worldly power, he chose the slow, hard way of Incarnation, love, and death. A conquest from within."

-- Philip Yancey

First Timers

Quite a number of first timers this year.

Duane & Hiromi
Met Duane officially for the first time in more than 10 years and his wife, Hiromi. They graciously offered their place for my stay in London. Cooooooool.......

Tingie
Met U for the first time this year too! U crack me up! Aaaaahh...

Karen
Always thinking out of this world or seemingly floating in her thoughts......first time I meet such kind too!!! Pay attention Karen!!!

Damian
Your first time in Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooohooooooo........ which means my first time to Underwater World in Sentosa! Hahaha...

Qi Qin Concert
My first live concert in Singapore :o) Hope there are many more to come!

Taiwan
First time there this year. All thanks to Rachel's wedding. Chill place with scary waves!

Joshua
First kid of Marijke, first time I met him! Cutie! Of coz, that means my first time in Reading. Nice quiet place...

The Love Of A Father

I saw this a couple of times and it always touches me.

That kind of love magnified is how much my Heavenly Father feels for me.

London Up, Paris Down

Some people get affected by the travel class when going on flights. Moan about not getting first class or business class from before till after the flight and some days later.

I'm just happy that I get to go London and back from Paris. Not many people out there get to travel even!

Had a great trip! I am satisfied :o)

Joshua is soooooooooo cute......

Prawnie - The Sumo Kid

Life is good here with the hospitality of Duane and Hiromi. Have now upgraded to sumo status.

London - My 2nd Home

Right now back in my 2nd home -- London

Feels good to see the familiar sights after 4 years away from here. Some things have changed. But it feels good to be walking down the streets that have changed and yet familiar to me.

This is almost like an international meet up for me I guess.

Damian (Poland)

Marijke (Holland)

Vicky (Hong Kong)

Momoka (Japan)

Damian is coming to Singapore! Finally........after I visited him in Poland, now is his turn! Gonna take leave and bring him around. Might be the first time for me to go some places in Singapore! Hahaha........

Purpose of Passwords

Login and password. The essential thing to safeguarding the information in my work laptop, the different applications I have to run, the secure websites I need information from, the email program I have to use too!!!

I know the purpose is for security. When it starts to expire and require a new password every X number of days, security goes up another level. A constant change, just let the hacker have a go at it!

BUT......the following may be some requirements, depending on which application:

- a new password every X number of days

- must consist of at least one lowercase alphabet, one uppercase alphabet, one number, one symbol, blah blah blah

- must not be the same as TEN previously used passwords

- must be minimum 8 characters long

By the time I think of all these, I cannot remember what I wanted to login for.

What THEN is the real purpose of the passwords??? I need to remember 10 different ones (at least) whereas the hacker concentrates on hacking one. You mean that is security?

Long Lost Disciple

A "disciple" from long long time ago. Lost contact in between because we were each busy with our stuff. And then I try to call a few weeks back and realised that the number is no longer in use.

Determined not to slowly lose in contact with the people I've known and were part of my life, I managed to get her number. She just got married. Time has flown by so quickly. My disciple has grown up so much. I think I want to meet up and catch up with her. I hope He is still part of her life.

Hmmm...now I remember the words of Tingie...

This is a year of restoration.

Importance of 5Cs

5Cs came to my mind and I think they are important.

C reator

C ommitment

C ommunication

C onsistent

C ontentment

Relationship between EMOTIONS and LOGIC

"LOGIC is low when EMOTIONS are high."

Letting Go

Currently on course led by a lecturer who is also a counsellor.

One common trait seen in her experience:

"Not everyone can let go even if they know they are suffering."

Pretty much sums up why a lot of people are struggling with issues.

What Is The Real Problem?

The English Version

Said Also Don't Listen

Listen Also Don't Understand

Not Understand Also Don't Ask

Ask Also Don't Do

Do Also Do Wrong

Wrong Also Don't Admit

Admit Also Don't Correct

Correct Also Not Happy

Not Happy Also Don't Say

The Chinese Version

说了又不听

听了又不懂

不懂又不问

问了又不做

做了又做错

错了又不认

认了又不改
改了又不服
不服又不说

Impossible To Live With?

"Being a "chosen people" had a cost. Just as God found it nearly impossible to live among sinful people, the Israelites found it nearly impossible to live with a holy God in their midst."

We want God to act in a direct, closeup manner and at the same time are unwilling to have a lack of personal freedom. Are we intending to let God be in control within our control?

Big Breakfast?

Debs :

Hey, you've eaten? I bought Fan Choy and Chwee Kueh. Which do you want?

Prawnkid :

Anything. You eat first.

*Debs brought the Chwee Kueh to my room*

Debs :

Nah. Give you Chwee Kueh. So cute, inside got one only.

Prawnkid *mumbles* :

Eat until left one and give me still say cute. How cute can ONE Chwee Kueh be???

*pause from CS, opens packet to eat and finish the Chwee Kueh off*

Revelation sets in.

That's the first cute Chwee Kueh I ever eaten in my life.

Definition of a cute Chwee Kueh :

A Chwee Kueh measuring 9 centimetres in diameter.

Why Wait?

People can be taken for granted so easily.

Must remember that friendship does not exist because we are deserving, but by a concious decision of the other party to want that relationship.

Sometimes we only cherish what we have only when we are losing it.

Why wait till then?

Pride

What is so difficult about putting pride aside and admitting / apologising for mistakes?

The pride is the difficulty and also the accompanying humility needed.

I must learn to be sensitive. I must learn to be reasonable.

Respect is earned. Humility is practised.

Patience is a virtue. Godliness is a character.

Pilot vs Engineer

Finally went for some recreation after church (and beef kway teow at Purvis Street) today. Shijie has gone to JB, Amelda decided to launch an aeroplane by staying home to shit and Isaac has gone back to China...

So it's Matthew, Pat, Grace and me! There definitely is no wind at Marina South today. But somehow Matthew could get his kite up.

I'm sure Matthew had a great time kite flying. Mine was in the middle. Pat and Grace seemed to have fun kite running.

Patrick :

That is why Matthew is a pilot and we are engineers.

(Even fly kite also better!)

Giving Up

I feel sad for you, about you, with you.

Is your happiness really worth giving up just because of that one time?

In The Beginning

"At the heart of the universe is a smile, a pulse of joy passed down from the moment of creation. A new parent who holds a baby, my baby, close against flesh for the first time knows it. And that is the feeling God had when he looked over what he had made and pronounced it good. In the beginning, the very beginning, there was no disappointment. Only joy."

-- Philip Yancey

Which Part Of Life?

"People move on with their lives. We cannot insist to be part of theirs forever."

-- Prawnkid Productions

I hope my parts were those of nice memories.

Fly?

Happen to see Matthew at the canteen at lunch time today.

Matthew :

Hey, so how was the kite flying last Sunday?

Prawnkid :

Don't say already lah! What kite flying?! Fly aeroplane have lah!

Disappointment

"Disappointment occurs when the actual experience of something falls far short of what we anticipate."

-- Philip Yancey

How should I cope with the disappointments that I have?

London? Taiwan? Thailand? Anywhere?

Thinking of dropping by London for a few days in end September. Hop over from France work trip if possible. Still thinking about it. Quite a number of people to meet there and catch up. Hopefully there is enough time.

Momi, Vicky, Marijke, Damian, Richard?

Noticed there is a possible long weekend in October due to public holidays and weekend. One day of annual leave would return five days off. Thinking of going for a short trip.

Taiwan?

Quite like the place and thinking of going again. Could meet up with Rachel & hubby again. Jonny Jan the kungfu master too?

Thailand?

Just a cheap place to go. Cannot think of much to do there though. Definitely not Thai massage. I refuse to be a contortionist experiment again.

Anywhere?

Maybe I should just go somewhere I have never been before?

Main question : With who?

Seems more like who wants to with me?

Tired

Clement :

Are you ok? I have not seen you smiling like before for quite some time now.

Prawnkid :

I'm just tired.

Tired of what?

Invisible Boss?

Early morning meeting involving different people from different departments. Two attendees were there with me earlier, but my boss was nowhere in sight.

Attendee 1 :

You very cute hor. What's your name? Which department are you from?

Prawnkid :

Errrmm.....this is my department. I organised the meeting. We just need to wait for my boss. I think I am going to give him a call.

*excusing myself from the room to make phonecall*

(Boss is arriving and just parking the car.)

Attendee 1 :

So your boss is not here yet?

Prawnkid :

He's on his way...probably just coming in now. I just called him.

Attendee 1 :

*giggling*

You so funny. So I am right lah, he is not here yet lah.

Prawnkid :

Errmmm...

*mumbles* Isn't it bloody obvious? If he is in, you would see him right? He's not invisible what!

Just wondering who is the one who is weird now...

QQ & QY

Qi Qin & Qi Yu are just S U P E R B...

Hopefully can get the Lee Hom tickets *cross fingers till cramps*

Chyi Chin Concert

In 16 hours, I will be in Indoor Stadium watching Chyi Chin concert live!

Hehehe...

Atom, thanks for the tickets.

Weekday Karaoke

Went K-Box on Thursday night till 2am, only slept at 4am plus and still went to work today. Strange to be following doctor's advice to not sleep if I don't feel like sleeping.

Never knew that there were so many people with free time around. K-Box seems pretty filled up on a weekday. Some people were still there when we left.

Found a Wang Jie in Siao Lang. And definitely know the reason why AlphaGaymeo is always chanting in Club 7 Server. These guys are hilarious......

Expected New Craze :

Singing only half of all the karaoke songs and cancelling them to sing the next.

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

There are only three days that I have :

Yesterday

Today

Tomorrow

Yesterday has passed and I cannot change it

Today is tomorrow's yesterday and I live it

Tomorrow will be a better day

With nice memories of today

I'll live my best everyday

For a better yesterday

-- Prawnkid Productions

Doctor's Advice

Was sneezing badly ever since I stepped into the office today. Started to sniff also. Figured I should be showing the first signs of sickness. Wanted to work through the day but it was getting too irritating. Decided to see the doctor. (My new office is just 1 minute walk to the clinic anyway.)

Doctors always give the correct advice for our health problems. They are supposed to!

*** In Doctor's Room ***

Prawnkid :

Good afternoon Doc!

Doctor :

Yes. How can I help you?

Prawnkid :

I am feeling cold and have been sneezing non-stop since this morning. My throat feels dry. I have not been able to sleep for the past three weeks too. Not at least till 2am, sometimes 5 am.

*After usual open mouth 'Ah' test and temperature check*

Doctor :

You are suffering from normal cold. And sore throat I believe. (Actually I don't!!!)

As for your sleeping problem....are you stressed?

Prawnkid :

You mean stress causes that? (Actually I know :op) I'm not exactly stressed or depressed.

Doctor :

Do you bring work home?

Prawnkid :

No. Or rather I try not to. I don't really work at home much now. Anyway, I am on medication for a blood allergy and it causes drowsiness, so it helps me to sleep. But this is not a good solution because I do not want to be pills dependent. But I cannot sleep too little everyday as I need to work next day too.

Doctor :

Do you feel tired when you wake up? Some people do not need so much sleep, so it is OK.

Prawnkid :

Sometimes I am a little tired, but I have enough energy to last me through the day. But this is not good in the long run right? Sleeping really late (5am) and getting to work early in the morning. I try to rest on my bed but I cannot sleep. I just feel awake.

Doctor :

There's no point tossing and turning on the bed for 10 - 15 minutes. You will realise that you might as well get up. This is what you should do. If you are not tired, then DON'T SLEEP. Do whatever you want to do. Go to sleep only if you are tired. Your body will adjust itself.

Prawnkid :

Oh..............

Yes...that should solve the problem. Great! Thanks.

*applauding the FANTASTIC suggestion in my head*

*Bee Gees playing YOU WIN AGAIN in the background*

Insomnia?

Thought I was going through some pangs of insomnia, so decided to take leave today and sleep it out. Then again, since when have I ever had "normal" hours. Anyway, slept at 5:10am and woke up at 10:00am.

Decided to go blading in the afternoon with Ah Gal. Did not do much because the ones she rented was crap and it gave her an abrasion! I had the privilege of using the ones Martin lent. Wonder what kind of turbo wheels he had them fitted with, but definitely smooth....too smooth....bum lander for the first time today!!! Argh...

Took a walk from MacDonalds to the Food Centre. Had a feast there! I will NEVER let Ah Gal do the ordering again. I think she is ordering food to prepare us for starvation in times of war. Decided to take a walk to Atom's coffeeshop after. Only lasted till Siglap and took a bus. Atom left!!! Aaaaaaahhhhhh.........we took a drink each and talked about stuff...........think it is good that I shared with Ah Gal....always been close to me......feel better now........

Gotta still look for Ayako somehow.........hmmmm.........

Ah Gal, let's do this again next weekend or something....

Belinda Goh aka Ayako Sakai

I am looking for you my friend but I cannot find you. HP number is terminated, no replies to emails, no responses to messages on Friendster.

I cannot seem to find your address from my whole room of junk. I am so useless. Can't even arrange my stuff properly.

God, I really hope to find a way of contacting her. Please do not take her away before I find her.

I am so down because of you my friend.

Love Is Blind

I watched The Break Up yesterday. Did not quite like it because it was boring. But it does show correctly how important communications is, especially for a relationship.

Very often we go into a relationship and people cannot understand why. So the most common reason would be "love is blind". That's just the easiest answer and also no other further questions need to be entertained about the relationship.

Why then "love is blind"?

Because that is precisely how it is when you are in love. You are blind to all the things that you do not want to see and notice the smallest details about what you like in a person. You think the person is funny, even if not. You think the person is cute, even if not. You think the person just knows everything you need to know, even if the person is not super knowledgeable. Love is blind to faults, shortcomings, tempers, blah blah blah. As Josh Groban puts it, "In My Eyes You Do No Wrong"...

There is nothing wrong with love being blind. I think it is good. But I do not think that is all. There are many other virtues associated with love. Love goes beyond being blind. It gives the additional strength and energy to want to do more. Do more for the sake of yourself, for the sake of the other and most important, for the sake of both. It is active, not passive. If both see it and understand it, then the walk together begins.

So what then is LOVE????!!!!!!

Love is YOU.

(For everything else, there's Mastercard.)

Up & On

I sang this as a small boy. Never felt more passionate to sing any other school song. Always believed that a great many graduated in wisdom and stature.

Up & On
Lives are in the making here
Hearts are in the waking here
Mighty undertaking here
Up and On! Up and On!

We are arming for the fight
Pressing on with all our might
Pluming wings for higher flight
Up and On!

Up boys! Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game! Keep the flame Burning brightly ever!

Fair before us lies the way
Time for work and time for play
Fill the measure while we may
Up and On! Up and On!

Life and time will not delay
Time is running fast away
Life is now today today
Up and On!

Up boys! Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game! Keep the flame burning brightly ever!

Foes in plenty we shall meet
Hearts courageous scorn defeat
So we press with eager feet
Up and On! Up and On!

Ever onward to the fight
Ever upward to the Light
Ever true to GOD and RIGHT
Up and On!

Up boys! Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game! Keep the flame burning brightly ever!

Past, Present & Future

I cannot change the past nor history.

I cannot erase my memory.

I am in the present.

I remember the past.

Can't change what's gone.

Can change to move on.

The falls to remind how I got up.

The joys to savour how I grew up.

I think about the future.

What is now will be the past.

Each fall I will get up.

With joy I will fill up.

-- Prawnkid Productions

Lessons

Just finished a two-day course on Fraud Prevention. Due to my nature of work before, I guess this is an important course. Learnt some lessons from the course...

Lecturer:

What should the manager do when a fraud is detected?

My group:
Not sure. We are not managers.

(Why do I have to be the team leader???)

*lecturer gives weird look and scratches head in surprise*

Lecturer:
How many of you have staff reporting to you?

*raising of hands by some including me*

Lecturer:

Then surely you are managers if you have staff reporting to you?

Prawnkid:

That just makes us the Head Slave.

*lecturer speechless*

*entire class laughing in chaos*

Note:

I am sure they are not laughing at what I said but just in total agreement.

Some people really do feel that way.

Trust

TRUST

Requirements

Let go.

Love

" And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. "

-- 1 Corinthians 13:13

Every new day your glory unfolds

Filling my eyes with Your treasures untold

The beauty of holiness brings worship anew

My greatest love is You

Call me deeper into Your grace

The river that flows from the holy place

Wash over me

Cleansing me through

My greatest love is You

Hope

" Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; "

-- Lamentations 3:21-25

My life is in You Lord

My strength is in You Lord

My hope is in You Lord

In You, it's in You

I will praise You will all of my life

I will praise you with all of my strength

With all of my life

With all of my strength

All of my hope is in You

Faith

"Faith is easy when you're standing in front of a miracle. The real test of any faith is when there aren't any signs."

- quoted from Lynnette's reading

Forgetting what lies behind
Setting our hearts on the prize
Always keeping our eyes on our Lord Jesus

We're running the race to win
All the way to the end
Breaking down every sin that will seek to hinder us

And we'll be faithful to our calling
For You are able to keep us from falling
For in Your promise we will trust
We'll be faithful to finish the work You began in us

Weekend

Weekend went by in a breeze......someday someone should start the trend of 5-day weekend and 2-day weekdays. I'm sure most people would prefer that. Hahaha...

I actually arranged to pick Yiling up for breakfast at 5:45am on Saturday for breakfast!!! Without sleeping since Friday night too...that marked my first visit to Swee Choon (along Jalan Besar) for dimsum and porridge. Not bad......at least we didn't just eat MacDonalds...well, dropped her off to go make some money in Malaysia and help me buy some clothes. Headed home for 2 hours of sleep...

Woke up to have a good chat with Tingie. Interesting how we were talking about the same things and yet they gave us different revelations. Hang on there ok? You are an encouragement and a pillar of strength...

Really wanna go fly kite....literally....date has been set as 27 August!!! Am really looking forward to it....

The kite reminds me of myself...if I was a kite, I want my Father to be in control of the string. Pulling it at the right times for me to cut through the winds of trials and changes. If the string is broken, the kite might seem to go up high on its own, BUT eventually will fall somewhere. Father, please be in control of the string and guide me with your gentle tugs...

My Mother is the Champion!

My mum always calls me approaching 1730hrs to ask me if I am going home for dinner.

(Think I mentioned it in one of the posts)

Considering the number of times I have not been eating home. Also feel a little bad lah.

Saw the phone ring at 1730hrs, with my mum's picture appearing (these days phones can really do amazing stuff), confirmed must be asking about dinner. True enough.

Mum : Are you coming home for dinner?

Prawnkid : Hmm Nah, Ok Lah, I am going home to eat tonight.

Mum : Ok, BUT I NEVER COOK. Am going to the church opposite for a praise concert.

*Mum goes "hehehe" in the background*

Prawnkid : .............

Mum, today you are the champion!

Anything

Does ANYTHING really mean ANYTHING for food preference??

Prawnkid : Let's go for dinner. What do you wanna eat?

Potential Dinner Mate : Anything.

Prawnkid : Ok, let's go for sushi.

Potential Dinner Mate : I don't really wanna eat raw stuff.

Prawnkid : Then how about steamboat. Everything can be cooked! *yummy*

Potential Dinner Mate : Nah, still need to cook yourself and perspire.

Prawnkid : Ok.....hmmmz.....Carl's Junior? Heard it is good, I never tried it.

Potential Dinner Mate : Don't eat fast food for dinner lah...

Prawnkid : Yeah...I guess not...let's just go to a foodcourt then...

Potential Dinner Mate : Always eat the usual........got better place?

Prawnkid : Depends on what you wanna eat, then think of location would be easier lo....

*Both parties thinking for a few seconds*

Potential Dinner Mate : Hmmm..........

Prawnkid : So how? Thought of what you wanna eat yet?

Potential Dinner Mate : ANYTHING.

*Prawnkid sits down, pah popping at what just happened*

The above story is not exactly what happened because there were variants of it. But similarities have definitely occured.

My Latest Acquisition

Finally got my new pair of NIKE after looking at it over more than five different occasions.

Next up.......still need to look for a pair of slippers and a pair of sandals.......

Three-quarters, bermudas, jeans.....watch out.....

A Special Day

Ninth of August is a special day

We don't have to go to school

We all can play

We are dressed in our best

Especially for today

Hip Hip Hurray

For National Day

Happy Birthday Singapore!

Happy Be-earlied Birthday Singapore!

Hmmm, thinking of taking half a day off in the afternoon, paint my face red and run down the streets. (Yeah right, I don't think I am THAT patroitic.) Ironically, I would wear an England jersey during the World Cup, but not any clothes that depict my own country at any time.

Gone were the days that I was such a fanatic fan of Singapore (soccer). And there was the emergence of the Kopi Kat Klan....(Y U So Like Dat Ah?)

*music ringing in the head*

If only I have ten Fandi

All with the skills of V Sundramoorthy

We will win the Malaysian Cup

We will not be called kuching kurup

No one will beat Singapore *hey hey hey hey*

Not even Pahang or Johor

We will win the Malaysian Cup

We will not be called kuching kurup

The Lake House

Just finished watching The Lake House.

Good show.

This confirms that movie reviews cannot be trusted. They should even be sacked. Goodness. What kind of crap reviews are they writing. Maybe I should be headhunted.

Anyway, recommended show.

The ticketing staff asked me the time of show I wanted to watch. There was only one screening at 2135hrs. What answer was she expecting??? Two years from tomorrow???

Festival Of Rock

Went for Festival Of Praise yesterday. Seems more like Festival Of Rock at the end of it. Did not exactly appeal to me. But I guess everything would have changed through the years. I cannot expect Festival Of Praise to be the same as when I participated in 1993 and 1994.

They don't even cater space for all those involvement now. I guess it was better to use the space to put more chairs for more people to participate in the events.

Well, it's Delirious for next year's Festival Of Praise then. When I first listened to Delirious CDs, people think that I listen to noisy music and have weird music taste. Now everybody loves Delirious just like Hillsongs. Weird.............would still go for Parachute Band...............

Maybe Kent Henry or Bob Fitts or Graham Kendrick!!! should return........

Click

Was supposed to watch The Lake House yesterday, but missed the timing. Ended up watching Click. Figured it should be ok to just catch a comedy and relax out.

Surprisingly, Click is more than just a comedy. The underlying plot of the story becomes life questioning. It is almost a wake up call.

The question now is : What Would I Do?

This movie is good enough for me to decide to get the DVD when it is out :o)

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday Karen!

Man & Machines

Just finished the RT (Remedial Training) session for today. The trainers tried to make it interesting by having a competition between the new PTIs (Physical Training Instructors) vs the reservists. There were 115 of us vs 25 of them. Competition: Number of pull-ups.

As usual, most of the reservists cannot be bothered, so dun even try. Ended up with 425 for PTIs taking the win. That is an average of 16 pull-ups per PTI. I think they are machines dressed like humans...

The PTI for reservist decided to help by doing pull-ups to count towards our side. They are seasoned machines. Three of them did 25 each. I dun think they drink Redbull, they probably eat the entire bull. Can't believe such people exist....in numbers too....

Soon there is no more RT for me.....YEAH.....and welcome to IPT.....

Different name, same shit.....(at least lesser quantity though)

Complete Closure

Been a while since my break-up with Irene. Have gotten over it for some time and very well. For some reason, some people refuse to believe it. Think they are holding on to her, not me.

I am very well and am very grateful for those who were there for me all the time.

Especially Tingie. You made me see life in lots of different angles that I did not before.

Ah Gal, Atom, you both were always there.

Crystal, Yiling, thanks for the encouragement and being there.

Him, without You, nothing is possible.

After my post yesterday about completeness, it seems a divine touch that I had a conversation with Irene. Tonight, there is complete closure.

The hands must learn to let go of what we think is good for us,

THEN only can He give us what is best for us.

:o)

His Complete Work

Took my "A Taste Of Heaven" CD and decided to give it a replay. I loved that CD so much before. Even more so after my glimpse of heaven. Playing it now brings back the nice memories.

Then I hear something...

God is here to bring deliverance that is complete.

What God finishes is completely finished.

Lesson From Job

Lesson that I learnt from the story of Job

His "good" friends decided in unison to come together and console him. They weeped for him and they go on to talk to him, console him, offer suggestions, suggest what he should do, blah blah blah.....

So often I do that. People come to me and I say what I feel or think about the situation and I give my comments.

What draws my attention is not what Job was blessed with after. (Of course the story showed how much more Job was blessed for keeping his faith.) What draws my attention was how his friends were condemned!!! After talking for more than 30 chapters in the book and they are condemned at the end.

The lesson: If you do not have godly counsel, SHUT UP.

The Good And The Bad

"Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.

If Job can keep the faith, I can and must be able to keep the faith.

Movies

Nacho Libre

This show is damn funny........Ignacio.......have the poster as my handphone wallpaper for now....

I think this would be more worth it than Scary Movie....

Lady In The Water

Heck about the critics. I think this is quite good. Gan jiong enuff to hold my attention. Became a little funny when the lady from Nacho Libre appeared. Could hear Rachel say it, though she was two seats away. Not helping that Tingie was trying to contain her laughter AND shaking the chairs for some reason.......was wondering how come GV Plaza Sing got OSIM chairs leow.....

Dragon Tiger Gate

Caught the show with Heng Kah and Joanne. And I am glad I caught it. I think the directing was good, especially the fighting scenes. Donnie Yen makes it worth watching.

The Lake House

Will need to watch this sometime this week.

It's time to sleep and prepare for Monday blues....been a great week!

Martin's gonna lend me his blades!!!!!!!!!! Serangoon Central better watch out. There's a dangerous kid zooming around soon......... (when am I going to tell myself to go Sembawang to collect it though?????)

Ever Realised?

Been talking to a lot of people and hearing some interesting observations. Wonder if this is like a "natural" reaction:

1) The Runner

You are walking in a well populated shopping place. There are steps going down. You trip while going down the steps and fall. You get up and run away!!! Hoping that no one noticed or recognised your face!

2) Giving the "TSK" but NEVER receiving

You are shopping or walking and somehow someone blocks you. Then you go "TSK" so loud purposely for the person to hear. Then you stare until the person fades into thin air. But if you are being "TSK" at by other people, you become fed up for being "TSK" at.

Note: "TSK" is a sound produced by clenching teeth, blocking the remaining outlet between the teeth with your tongue, and then forcing out a short burst of air.

3) Damn Obvious Unpreventable Question

You see a friend at the cinema queuing at the Box Office or waiting to enter the cinema. You ask, "Watch movie ah?" (Wonder what the heck you expect the answer to be.)

Connel once suggested "No, I came here hoping to meet you by chance. How about you?"

Moving On Wheels

Went blading again this morning. So far so good, two weeks in a row leow. Mabbe Connel and Ah Lau might join in two weeks from now. If I dun receive any aeroplanes lah. Hahaha. Mabbe can psycho to take out her blades and try again. Sometimes I think blading for people at my age is more of getting over a mental block first.

But I definitely rented a better pair of blades today! Compared to last week, this is SO SO much more comfortable. Can balance better lor. Started at the beginner's rink for about 40 minutes, then the crowd started pouring in. Decided that will just proceed to the road. Wonder what made me decide that. Super scary lor.

I think I went off for at least one kilometre and then back. So that's two! Already think it is an achievement lor. Learnt two ways of falling:

1) Rolling Gravity Stop

Basically let your weight and gravity lose your momentum until you roll to a stop. Simple, just keep your balance, and make sure there is a runway to let you roll to the end.

2) Goal Celebration Stop

Even simpler. Just lose your balance, stumble forward, go on your knees, palms will naturally come out and support the fall (with wrist guards), body lunge forward, kiss the floor (optional) and there! Stop leow. (What did you think Thierry Henry was doing at the last game in Highbury. He fall down then pretend celebrate goal lah...)

I did not get hurt this time. Yeah! Joanne fell hard! Very hard! I could hear the thump! And she is not big size lor. Looking from behind and hearing the fall, the only reaction I could muster was clenching my teeth and a quick breath in through the teeth.... ssssiiiiii....... then cringe a little like as though I felt the pain......

Soon.....I will get my blades.....

(My mum suggested that now I can blade to Serangoon Central and buy food or groceries leow. NTUC got blade-thru lane meh?!)

Becoz It Makes Them Happy?

What kind of person am I?

Have been trying to ask this question to some people I know. Especially those who know me for some time. It would be good to hear what they think about me in the past and what they think about me now. Not that I totally bother with what people say about me though. But somehow at the back of my mind, it feels kind of interesting to know...

Got some mixed replies. Some say I am a good listener, some say I am not. Some say I very carefree and what you see is what you get, while others think I keep everything to myself and I may not be what I seem. Some feel I am interesting, while others feel I may be irritating. Weird huh? Not really....I guess it all depends on when you caught me and what I am thinking or going through at that point of time.

For those who know me well, I place friends in a very high priority in my life. In a sense, I might be closer to my friends than my family. I talk more and share more with friends. I do a lot for my friends because that is how I want myself to be as a friend to them. For a long time, I subconciously develop an unspoken expectation that my friends have the same model of friendship. Unfortunately not.

But one thing I know. How I treat you should not be dependent on how you treat me. I want to be unconditional.

Disappointments in situations for me may be temporary, but disappointments from friends leave me with a heartbreak and a scar. As much as I crave the same, I hope I do the same to forgive and forget.

Mistakes -- OK , Regret -- NO

When I was born, life was simple. Kids never used to think that much. What is more important than having fun, eating when you are hungry, watching cartoon when you want to, etc...?

Slowly I grew a little older. Being cute is like the "in" thing for kids at that age. Everyone likes to be well-liked. Somehow it must have stuck, since I still hear people use "cute" to describe me. I'm turning 30!!! You must be so kidding to still use that kind of description....

Then came the schooling years...worked hard (but definitely not enuff), and played even harder (would gladly dedicate more effort doing this). Those were the days. Will always think back. I literally had a bunch of buddies who would dig into our pockets, combined all the coins that we had, bought a plastic ball, arrange four bags as goalposts and there we go having the game of our lives. It's a pity we don't get to play that often now. Miss those times...

Poly went by in almost a breeze. Was busy with Festival of Praise then. Yes, I was a dancer. But not the clubbing type hor. Was also in the pioneer batch of Eternal Splashes and joined again one year later (with a much smaller role by then).

Army was next. Made a couple of crazy friends. Still meet up every reservist and have the time of our lives. University came straight after. My life moulded quite a lot in this time. It was also the time that I got "A Taste Of Heaven". It's so fantastic that I do not know how to describe it.

Now working life. Suddenly almost 30 years of my life has gone past. Time flies.

I made mistakes in my life and that is fine. It is part and parcel of growing up. I remember mistakes as the funny things that happened in my life, so they are nice memories. I think making mistakes in life is definitely OK, but making a regretful decision, that haunts.

Goal for the remainder of 2006:

Mistakes -- OK

Regret -- NO

14 Statements, 1 Conclusion?

Here are 14 statements to see if a person know who he/she loves. It's pretty interesting to know your own answer at the end. I'm surprised how direct the statements are.


#14
You look at their profile picture all the time.

#13
When you are on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

#12
You read their texts or IM's over and over again.

#11
You walk really slow when you're with them.

#10
You feel shy whenever they're around.

#9
When you think about them, your heart beats faster and slower at the same time.

#8
You smile when you hear their voice.

#7
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you. All you see is him / her.

#6
You start listening to slow songs, while thnking of them.

#5
They're all you think about.

#4
You get high just from their scent.

#3
You realise that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them.

#2
You would do anything for them, or anything to see them.

#1
While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time...


Ultimately, who is it at #1 leh?

Type Of Person At Work

Read an article this morning. There are three types of person at work. Which kind am I?

Proactives

Those intrepid warriors chasing new ideas, and no matter their age, they can be found looking forward to the next vast vista of opportunities.

Reactives

Those who have a propensity to watch things happen. They will stay in a job they hate for the money and the security.

Inactives

Those who show up in life with little interest other than living out their existence on this planet.

Somehow I think that I am a mixture. Wanting to be the first, sometimes feel like the second, most part living out the third.

Balancing On Wheels

I finally tried blading "properly" for the first time yesterday. Had to rent blades from the East Coast shop and it's HERE WE GO! The blades that I got was not so good. A bit loose interior due to the millions who have rented it before me. Basically, the cushion for the right one kept moving down and the plastic exterior was rubbing directly on my leg. Now there is an abrasion there.

Heng Kah & Joanne came with me, with the former as the coach. With his guidance, I could balance, move a bit and know the concept of braking (falling is DEFINITELY the fastest way). Joanne had a distinct advantage over me for learning. Basically she had tried rollerskate, iceskate, and now rollerblading. There I was trying to move and there she was trying to zoom about.

At one point, there was the thought of "I'm too old for this shit!"......THEN one auntie had to zoom round and round the beginners rink. I GET THE POINT! I am not too old, probably too dumb! Argh.........

It is going to take me some time just to move properly I think. Hopefully next Saturday will be a better experience. And also hope those good ones can piss off from the beginners rink. They were not even there to teach people, just showing off............mabbe it is not too difficult to crash into them "accidentally" hiak hiak hiak hiak *evil grin*

Lea promised to teach me the next time. Supposedly has a track record of definitely can blade within the same day. Maybe she will whip if I dun put in effort. Better reconsider calling her.

Oh yeah, considering the number of times I fall on my backside than the kneeguards, I think I better make a trip to WWE and buy one of those padded clothing from Bret "The Hitman" Hart.

If I Was A Teacher

If I was a teacher, I think I would choose to be a Mathematics teacher. After all, that is my stronger subject, compared to any other I have done. I scored full marks for my University Mathematics exam OK, dun puay puay......but now I left everything in the exam halls.....no choice lah, weight limitation for the flight back to Singapore forced me to lighten my brain.....

BUT, after seeing what Tingie sent me on some of the answers to Mathematics questions, I think I really really have to consider if I ever wanted to be a teacher at all in my life......

This fella would have scored full marks, if Stephen Chow was his teacher. I'm sure.


But nothing can prepare even Stephen Chow for the next one. I bet Bee Gees was playing "You Win Again" soundtrack when the teacher received this next submission....
This one I confirm pah pop for him.....................................it's one of those WAH LAU EH!!!!!!

Working With An Attitude

Not been able to write for a while because I am caught up with things to do and I seem to fall asleep with the computer on for a couple of days now. Missed going to Club 7 also. But well, tonight and tomorrow, I will definitely be there. Of course, tonight Azora is going to serve me free satay. I am going to demand for it! Otherwise, will tell Atom to fire him and will also ban him from Club 7! hiak hiak hiak hiak *evil grin*

I am still in office past 7pm on a Friday. It's already weekend! But well, stayed back to do some stuff and hopfully my boss' fax will come in before I go. Supposed to help him look out for a fax. Was just thinking about the mentality towards work that I have.

Working is a phase of life that most go through. There are those born with a diamond spoon in their mouths, we shall exclude those. There are poor people out there who chop off their limbs and beg on the streets. To them, that is work! (I cannot believe it, but they exist...)

It is a phase of life that requires an attitude. Just what is the attitude should I have? Some have suggested "I dunno, I dun care", "I do what I can, I dun care what I can't", "I'm a slave, I should be thankful that I am employed", "I am paid to work to 5:30pm, dun talk to me about work at 5:31pm or U shall see a flying laptop".......many many different ways of looking at it.

Everything happens for a purpose. So there must be a reason why we are working at a certain place. We are put there for His divine purpose. Deep down, I know I should be happy working. Everyone should be, provided got good pay, good boss, good working hours, nice colleagues, responsible staff, etc.....Chances are, I cannot choose all these parameters. BUT, I can choose the mentality that I have towards work.

Some time back, I was caught in a period of time where I was really unhappy and was on the verge of leaving the company. But I am thankful that I have come to realise it is my mentality towards work that will drive me on. With interest and the pride to want to do something well, and being happy to do it, no matter how difficult the path, I will naturally push myself to go on. If anyone hears me complaining about work now, hahaha, I can assure that it is just being whiny and I actually enjoy a little whining about some of the issues. It's really funny how some situations are. At the end of the day, I know I will do my best.

Should the day comes when I am deemed unsuitable here, I am happy to be fired or to leave. Because I know, my Father will walk with me through the good times and carry me through the hard times.

Thank you Father.

Taming The Tongue

On Monday, I said things that I should not have said. It was not just a matter of saying something wrong. It is also knowing when to stop. For so many times, it is because I did not stop when I am supposed to, then I say things that I should not have said.

Best phrase to describe it. "It was uncalled for."

The tongue. Meant to help us with the taste of food, to talk clearly and some other functions. Fail to control it, and it can be like a fire that will destroy an entire forest. Such is the power of this part of the body. And I am just losing my control of it!

I think I really need to be more sensitive. Sorry if I had offended anyone non-deliberately, deliberately, by chance, or by appointment. I really have no intention to hurt. Whatever it is, I really am apologising. Let's forget the past and move ahead anew.

Forgetting what lies behind.
And setting our hearts on the prize.
Always keeping our eyes on our Lord Jesus.

We’re running the race to win.
All the way to the end.
Throwing off anything that will seek to hinder us.

我最大的心愿

Antress, thanks for this message. To some people, this might be a generic forwarded SMS, but to me, I appreciate that you put an effort to send to me :o)

一丝真诚，胜过千两黄金，
一丝温暧能抵万里寒霜，
一声问候送来温馨甜蜜，
一条短信捎去我万般心意，
你快乐是我最大的心愿。

Right? Wrong? Maybe?

He is perfect. He hates sin.
It is unacceptable for Him to be associated with sin.
Therefore, to not be in Him, is to be in sin.
Do you want to be in sin?

The above is right.
Therefore, it is not wrong.
If it is a maybe,
Then we won't be steady.

Choose to be hot or cold.
I pray choose the one to behold.
Not by power, nor by might,
But by His Spirit, to be on His side.

The above ran through my head, as sometimes you wonder what are the real directions in life that you wanna take. I wonder if decision A or decision B is the best, etc...U know, somehow, deep inside, we all know what we want to do, but always just trying to find reasons to justify it. The more ridiculous the want, the more ridiculous the reasons.

What then is needed for us to make the right decisions? Answer : To be near the truth. Because only truth is victorious and will set you free. He is the truth. I want to be near Him. Then I know my path. I can't be wrong if I am walking with Him. Even if I do not know where I am going, as long as I walk with Him, it must be the right direction. Therefore, knowing the final outcome for everything is not the most important to me now, aligning my walk with Him is.

Today, I remember a lesson I learnt long ago. If something causes you to feel it is not right in Him, don't go ahead with it. If something causes you to possibly compromise your relationship with Him, avoid it. Better to have nothing and be with Him, then to have everything without Him.

"Far better is to be with you even for a day, than to live a thousand years and to never see one glimpse of Your face."

Guardians of Tower de Celsius

Had to miss church and go to office today because I just shifted. So had to go and test all the PC connections, unpack some stuff and basically try to be as ready as possible tomorrow to start work. Had the basic things setup on my desk to get things going on Monday, left with two boxes of documents left unpacked. Can only do that after my carpet has been repaired and my shelf moved to stand properly on its designated place.

Most important of all is to set up my "Tower de Celsius" (yes, remember I have a thermometer on my desk?) Along with it came the guardians (but of course!)

Faith

Rummaging through my stuff from UK that is piled up in my room. Have been clearing my room for a million years!! Okie lah, not that long lah, but more than three years...considering that I am still sorting out stuff from UK............I WILL MAKE SURE I GET MY ROOM TO THE FINAL STAGE THAT I ENVISAGE IT TO BE.......

Came across something that reminds me of F A I T H

F A I T H

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Believing in God's Wisdom.

Trusting in His counsel.

Resting in His love.

Office Movement

Been packing stuff in my office. Look at my desk, how much cleaner can U get? If only there was no work piled up all the time. Hahaha....actually just at the position that I am standing is about 4 big boxes. Going to shift office this weekend lo......will be at the new office from Monday! I am going to get a smaller area compared to now, hopefully can get used to it.

Was just looking at my picture and thinking.......all the laptop users put the laptop on the desk and all the desktop users put the CPU on the floor.......what was the guy thinking when he started naming the laptop a laptop and a desktop a desktop???

I think a laptop should be called a desktop and a desktop should be called a sidebox. Things should change and can change. But can people change to accomodate the change?

Club 7

Just spent about half an hour in Club 7 Server. Been some time since I played properly. With the chalet, Melbourne trip and meeting up with friends almost everyday. Good to catch up with some of you that I have not seen in a long while.

Club 7 - The Club of Fun & Laughter

Been a number of years since this club was formed. Funny how time flies and the members have known each other pretty well. It was good to see those that came for the chalet. Who would believe that a Counterstrike Club has such activities? Not to forget those pool sessions, makan, opening of Atom's coffeeshop, etc... Thankful that I am able to make some really close friends from the Club.

"Atom, Ah Gal, I am sure we have a bond that is much more than friends. I know you both will be there for me."
-- <^7^> ** P r a w n k i d ** aka Ah Boy

What Is Love?

Taking a break from packing my stuff in office. We're finally moving today. That means I have to be here on Sunday to help setup everything in the new office for the other staff.

Being in Middle Management is pretty challenging. You MUST do everything that your boss tells you to. You try to delegate to your staff, but end up trying to answer their clarifications or helping them to do the work because they are just unable. They get paid if stay past office hours, whereas you are expected to stay to produce whatever you were tasked to do. There is no point for Management to stay back with you because they only need the information that you should provide them when you are done with your work. For those who have gotten my namecard, that entire designation that you see under my name is just the extended equivalent of SLAVE. No worries though, I am a happy slave :o)

Okie, back to my original intention of writing down about Love. Description of Love?

True Love is unconditional.

That's all. No BUTS about it. It is not dependent on whether a person loves you back, U still love. It is not dependent on the physical lifespan of something given in love. For example, U will always remember what your parents/grandparents/friends did for you out of love. You will always remember something that is given out of love, even if it has been discarded by now.

My mother loves me regardless of how I treat her. I play her out by not going back home for dinner. For more than three years ever since I came back from UK, I do that. But even this morning, she is still asking if I am going home for dinner. That is true motherly love. Thanks Mum. (By the way, I am not going back for dinner today :op)

I love my "god-daughter". I told you before. How I treat U is not because of how U treat me. I will still be there for U if U need me. Just let me know. (I'm happy to see that U've grown a little.)

Why is love so unconditional? Answer : It has always been like that.

Creation came about because of love. When you love something, it will definitely be good in your eyes. God saw all that he made and it was GOOD! Of course, true to the "WAH LAU EH" syndrome, Man has to fall. All because of one fruit. Alamak! One whole garden of fruits not enough, must be so whiny and eat THAT particular fruit. Well, His ways are not ours. Without the fall of Man, we'll not see the redemption of Christ.

Do you think Christ loves you? YES. Do you think he knows you love him or not? DOES IT MATTER?! You were not even swimming in your mum when He died for you. But He died for you all the same. Why? Becoz His love is unconditional.

So the benchmark on how love should be is set. Where do I measure in comparison?

Blogging does burn energy. I'm going for lunch. (Yes Tingie, any reason to eat is a good reason.)

Old Anointing vs New Anointing

Old anointing reminds you of your sin.
New anointing reminds you of your righteousness in Christ.
Old anointing reminds you of what's wrong with you.
New anointing reminds you of what's right with you in Christ.

Old anointing says God imputes to you the sins and God will by no means clear the guilty.
New covenant anointing says God has condemned your sins and He will remember your sins no more.
And you are blessed because "Blessed is the man in whom the Lord shall not impute sin."

We need new covenant anointing.

Captured the above from a sermon by Pastor Joseph Prince (New Creation Church).

Interesting.

What Fragrance Am I?

Was supposed to go shopping today, but ended up coming home. Mabbe do some packing while I am listening to CDs. Shopping will be done tomorrow I hope. Supposed to meet Irene for dinner too.

Well, managed to do a kind of "test" (sent by Antress) after work today. It determined the kind of fragrance I am and proceeded to describe what it best analysed me to be. Shall attach the results here and maybe someone can come along and tell me if this is what you think of me too?

Here it is:
You are the orient-floral fragrance type

You have a very strong sense of self-awareness and your own world, unlikely to be manipulated. You will use your own strength to actively reach your goals, and gives other an impression of being passionate. You are decisive with friends, added to the image of a lone-ranger, those around you will feel that you are a mysterious character. While being mysterious can be charming sometimes, others feel they cannot talk to you in a relaxing manner and finds you difficult to handle due to your caginess and high self-regard. It even gets to the point where people avoid unnecessary contact and stay as far away as possible. The real you is actually rather gentle, but people will only notice your merits when they are very close to you.

Some Observations

Came across some observations....got me thinking....

I thought 铁头功 oredi lost through the generations......


I thought I only went on leave for a short while........it's been so long.....


This guy was definitely forced to marry......

Time

Two weeks ago, my SWATCH was categorized as a STOPWATCH. Why? Becoz it stopped moving. Haiz, one less watch to wear until I bring it to the watch shop.

Was working yesterday and suddenly shocked that it was already 11+am after just a few mails! What happened? Then I realised.......my SOLVIL TITUS decided to follow the SWATCH. Maybe it is time they changed their slogan.

不 在 乎 天 长 地 久 ，只 在 乎 battery last 多 久

Amelda, you can rest assured that the red SWATCH gets my undivided attention now.

Best Escape Phrase

This year I learnt a phrase that will get you out of any difficult to answer conversation....

"Aaaaaahhhh, you dunno one lah...."

What Is Trust? Is It Strong?

BGR BGR
"I trust him." "I trust her." Something not so nice happens in the relationship and suddenly this five letter word is all lost in the confusion and turmoil, overtaken by anger, sadness and regret. What then happened to the trust? Is it trust when it can be shattered?

It all depends on what the trust between the both of you is based on. If it is dependent on what the person do (send flowers? send you home? open the door for you?) or what the person say (sweet words? loving words? mushy words??!!), then REMEMBER THIS......the day that all these are not done anymore, suddenly the trust starts to disintegrate. You begin to doubt if the person really does love you anymore.

So what then should it be based on???

Try having a foundation that never changes. A love that is constant, unselfish, sacrificial and most of all, eternal. Try Him. If both of you have the same foundation and are committed to have a close walk with Him, surely He will guide and lead you. And if He loves you, surely He will bless you.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths."

Today, I ask that I will not lean on my own understanding. I will trust.

Who Is The Doctor For?

Just back from lunch, need to get back to packing stuff to move to new office location. I get big window again, but definitely a smaller space. Should be fine with it, I always adapt :o)

Been hearing various sharing by different people on the difficulties that they are going through. People are around to listen to you and to share your physical burden, so that they can pray for you. Most tend to have opinions and want to share them with you. Take them all with a whole bottle of salt because they are not meant to be rule books for you to follow. Everyone goes through their own individual life journey and experience it differently. There is no reason why your life should mirror someone else, even if they have gone through something similar to what you are going through. You want to know what to do, ask Him whom you are living for. After all, it is about your journey to Him, so only He knows the best way.

It is not the healthy that needs a doctor, but the sick.

I am the God that healeth thee
I am the Lord, your Healer
I sent my Word and heal you disease
I am the Lord, your Healer