Becoz It Makes Them Happy?

What kind of person am I?

Have been trying to ask this question to some people I know. Especially those who know me for some time. It would be good to hear what they think about me in the past and what they think about me now. Not that I totally bother with what people say about me though. But somehow at the back of my mind, it feels kind of interesting to know...

Got some mixed replies. Some say I am a good listener, some say I am not. Some say I very carefree and what you see is what you get, while others think I keep everything to myself and I may not be what I seem. Some feel I am interesting, while others feel I may be irritating. Weird huh? Not really....I guess it all depends on when you caught me and what I am thinking or going through at that point of time.

For those who know me well, I place friends in a very high priority in my life. In a sense, I might be closer to my friends than my family. I talk more and share more with friends. I do a lot for my friends because that is how I want myself to be as a friend to them. For a long time, I subconciously develop an unspoken expectation that my friends have the same model of friendship. Unfortunately not.

But one thing I know. How I treat you should not be dependent on how you treat me. I want to be unconditional.

Disappointments in situations for me may be temporary, but disappointments from friends leave me with a heartbreak and a scar. As much as I crave the same, I hope I do the same to forgive and forget.