881...No Reservations...

Felt lousy for quite a while. Just wanna do stuff that does not require much thought. Eat & Movie. About the simplest things to do.

881. Even my parents have seen it. Since it is still showing, might as well. Majorly Hokkien and screened almost like a musical. Surprisingly full house during my time slot, even after it has been screening for so long. I am supposed to feel lucky getting a ticket. Anyhow, the show tries to portray the different things revolving around people and how they all affect or integrate into the life of another person. How different people can see the same issue/situation differently. The relationship between the two sworn sisters showed that what mattered most to them is that the other is happy. There is not a need to explain everything. Perhaps this is the kind of friendship that Seow Ling referred to...

No Reservations was pretty good. It made me forget time and felt like I was almost in a life long movie itself. Weird. Almost like an audience within the movie. Nick going to San Franscisco. That was when the thought came. Why always the extreme decision when some miscommunication or misunderstanding takes place? I can kind of identify with it for a while. Oddly, that also made me feel better when I finished the movie. What is happening now may not be what I want. So better not to be stuck in it.

True Friend

Chatted with Seow Ling while mapling away...yeah, this time on B world. Who knows how many characters will be created by me at the end of it all. But well, keep each other company at night bah.

We happened to talk about friends and who and what they meant to a person. She thinks I am pessimistic. Over pessimistic. But the interesting thing is what she said in the summary. Surely that would be more pessimistic that what she thought of me.

真的朋友,一个就够

Just One Day

The sight of two worlds in one day.

:o(

Selfish?

Booked and confirmed. Will my wish come true?

I think I just might be selfish this time. Hope nobody minds. After all, it is my first.

Pushed Factor

Think that is the push factor that I was expecting. It's set at the end of the month then.

Change Of Plans

One of those rare mega naps due to accumulation of events and thoughts. The dreams come fast and furious, switching from scene to scene. A lot of them strangely familiar events, definitely familiar people. Various combinations clearly depicting the most current thought patterns. That is how some people tend to dream about stuff that they most recently think about.

At least one burden has been lifted and that is good news. There are some things that words can never convince until the actions are seen. You start to wonder why you never believed it initially, but it's still better to be safe than sorry. After all, actions speak louder than words.

Moving ahead. There may be no holding back. Perhaps not a need to. I wonder if I will really be able to accept it? Strong enough? It claws a little during certain occasions. It will definitely be very hard to bear. Worse off when I can't look beyond now. Why that darkness? Really that stuck? Or choose to be stuck? What happens when that time comes? I dunno. I do not have an answer. Handle it when it comes.

I feel like changing my plans now.

deborah's aDORAble 3!

Went for Deborah's birthday celebration earlier. Wah, the number of kids there with the amount of sounds they make, the actions they have, all within the four walls....it would really make you think twice about working for a childcare centre. My mum was really thankful this was not held at home. Imagine the cleaning up after....might just freak out.

Hope she likes the present that Ah Qing and me bought. We had to interrogate the Toy R Us employee for some details of them. Hehehe. Hopefully the carefully chosen gift is right. Ah Qing was ploughing through the shelves like some seasoned Toy R Us shopper. Probably quite seasoned from her antics in MuMuYa wahahahaha

Seeing the cupcakes and the mini Dora cake. Saw Lynnette again. Previously, we concluded that we only seem to meet when someone is getting married. So now it seems that birthdays are added into the meet-up schedules. Now we have to find the next "victim" to celebrate birthday or get married before we meet again :op I remember to ask her about the baking this time! She agreed to teach, but have to schedule properly I guess. The last time I tried baking was also at her house I think.

Back was killing me at the party, had to sit so straight that I am so not used to it. Irene just suggested wearing a corsette. Great, now maybe I can audition for Pirates Of The Coffee Bean. Gotta recover in time for the game on Wednesday. Stiff neck and shoulders are not helping too. Think I better give Jean a call................

My Goodest Friend - A Tribute

You, my goodest friend, are someone who appeared out of the blue! It seems strange to know of your existence and yet only communicating now. All because of some typo error in a document too! But I am so glad that we've hooked up so well.

You truly brightenS my day. You never fail to make me smile with your antics *flicking the finger* Movie kaki, chatline, suanning opponent, sleeping passenger, too many ways to describe you. So... I am satisfied with just, My GOODEST FRIEND :o)

Remembering the promise we made to each other, we'll strive to make this forever.

I thank you. *Your goodest friend with the halo*

(I meant this for your Friendster)

Ratatouille & Evan Almighty

My back is killing me this morning. Probably bad posture throughout the week. Should not have hesistated visiting Jean yesterday. Hopefully it would be ok by Monday. Have a whole week of proper peace (hopefully) to get everything sorted. No getting out of completing certain tasks. Quite irritated by the nagging and the excuses to lame talk to me.

Seems like the movieholic in me is active. Very active. Ratatouille on Friday and Evan Almighty on Saturday! Laughed my head off for both of them. Hahaha. Can literally hear only our laughter at times. Maybe the rest of the cinema did not find it funny at some points, or not as expressive. Who cares?! We enjoyed it. Hehehe...

Ratatouille moment

Making the meat more tender *bish bish bish bish*

Ratatouille lesson

We are family.

Evan Almighty moment

You sound like Evan, but you look like a Bee Gees.

Have you been bitten by a werewolf?

Evan Almighty lesson

Conversation between "God" and Joan in the cafeteria. Puts perspective.

Hmmm, now wondering if I should catch the rest. Enthusiasm for some not as strong as when I first saw the trailer. Will consider.

Hairspray, No Reservations, The Last Legion...

Soft-hearted

Just too soft-hearted!!!

Thinking about it, so am I somehow. Otherwise, why still outstanding?

301

301 is not the latest Levis design. What button fly, zipper fly or can't fly. This just so happen to be the 301st post! Cannot imagine that I have been rambling so much since I started already. Really interested to see the different thought patterns when I look back at the posts at the end of this year. Will I remember the same things the same way as I wrote them?

Played badminton today! It was nice though there were only four of us. Good workout for everybody. Well, at least for me, since I perspire super easily. I think I need to get a better racquet soon. The one that I am using is really taking the life out of me just to hit the shuttlecock to the middle of the next court. Quite like the one that Joan lent me the last time. Light, strong and cheap! Hahaha...

Unexpectedly went for dinner with Jessica after! Hahaha, she offered to send me home if I paid her my bus fare! That is a good deal. Alina is unable to convince her to drive to JB even with a promise of seafood there. Hahaha. Good thing I stay in Singapore :op Well, we headed to IKEA for dinner first and I managed to tempt Jessica with one chix wing! Roast chix with chix wing. She is really wiping out that species... It was nice to be chauffeured home after. :o)

Tomorrow is interview day. All the best to the candidates tomorrow. Two bengs conducting interviews might not be a good thing. But then again, we are such nice people. You never know. I doubt I will be asking much, but have to see how it goes. Stuck in the same room with the same person for the whole day though. Funny that we were chatting about a fan club for him today. Hahaha, I was enjoying the conversation on pop. These girls are one funny lot. Jowin can still say only short of one ticket for redemption to be with him. Cannot take it.......

Hope that everyone can join in the session next week. I am sure we will have a lot of fun! Gonna miss Alina...

Ah Qing look nice in that blouse lah... hee... all thanks to me right? Wahahahaha...

Wonder if there is chance for shopping tomorrow... Hmm...

Specially For You

Tomorrow morning if you wake up,

And the sun does not appear,

I will be here.
If in the dark we lose sight of love,

Hold my hand and have no fear,

'Cause I will be here.

I will be here when you feel like being quiet.

When you need to speak your mind,

I will listen.

And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying.

Through the winning, losing, and trying, we'll be together,

'Cause I will be here.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up,

And the future is unclear,

I will be here.

As sure as seasons are made for change,

Our lifetimes are made for years,

So I will be here.

I will be here, and you can cry on my shoulder.

When the mirror tells us we're older,

I will hold you.

And I will be here to watch you grow in beauty.

And tell you all the things you are to me,

I will be here.

I will be true to the promise I have made,

To you and to the One who gave you to me.

What Matters Most

"What matters most is what should be done and not what you get from doing."

-- Prawnkid Productions

You Took My Heart Away

Michael Learns To Rock cheesy hit. People crinch at such cheesy hits and yet say them to their loved ones. Ha. Joey would probably love this, simply because it is Michael Learns To Rock. I hope you still love this band which I introduced years back. (Or you prefer Chris Tries To Rock still?)

Anyhow, I hope to say the same to my future other half. It takes two to become one.

Staring at the moon so blue

Turning all my thoughts to you

I was without hopes or dreams

Try to dull an inner scream

But you . . . saw me through . . .

Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone

You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Living in a world so cold

You were there to warm my soul

You came to mend a broken heart

You gave my life a brand new start

And now . . . I 'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Holding your hands I won't fear tomorrow

Here where we stand

We'll never be alone

You took my heart away

When my whole world was grey

You gave me everything and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life . . .

You become the meaning of my life . . .

You become the meaning

You become the meaning of my life . . .

Faith

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

- Hebrews 11:1

For you.

Trust me.

It will happen (naturally).

Just a matter of time.

Cherish whatever there is till then.

Priceless.

The Ah Qing Celebration 2

Finished with the Mortons dinner and decided to take a walk. Otherwise Ah Qing might start to plan some 40 laps marathon swimming again. Stopped midway across the bridge towards Merlion. Ah Qing wanted to take a picture specially for Josh. No surprises that she wanted Josh to notice her trademark signature move.

Finally got one decent shot after a million tries! Can see her tired look by now. Hahaha. It's been a long day out for us since work in the morning.

The final shot for the day! Clock struck midnight halfway on the walk back. I am the first to wish her Happy Birthday!!! Wow, then the millions of messages started to beep on her phone. I wonder if anyone remembers my birthday the same way. Hahaha......

Ended up chatting at her place again and she wanted to go Ubin too! We took so long to decide on the details. Hahaha. If only it did not rain...then we would really have gone to check out Chek Jawa which is newly opened. Gotta plan it again one of the weekends.

I hope Ah Qing had a good time and enjoyed her birthday this year :o)

The Ah Qing Celebration 1

Decided to celebrate the birthday of goodest friend Ah Qing! According to her, she has multiple celebrations with all her different friends. Sounds more like an entire month celebration really. Any excuse for her to eat cake is a good excuse I guess. Well, some changes to plans and ended up waiting for her to fashion show her various outfits for the dinner. Good thing the reservation was held for us. Mortons seem pretty popular even for a weekday.

Had a picture start! (That's quite a lot of wine to drink.......)

The place has quite a nice setting, though it can be pretty noisy with a full crowd. A personal waiter will come and present the entire menu, even with a live lobster. He left us to play with it for a while. Heh. It's nice to have a same waiter giving personalised attention throughout dinner actually. He was a nice chap that did not look 36 too!

That's me posing with the appetizer! It was a nice huge bread serving to be Ah Qing's birthday bread :o) It was a really really nice bake actually. She was thinking how to smuggle it home for personal enjoyment...

The Bread Cutting Ceremony!!! Happy Be-Earlied Birthday to Ah Qing!

Warned by Josh about her universal peace sign poses, Ah Qing did a change for the night. Rather than the conventional cake slice for birthday, she got the famous chocolate cake (with chocolate filling) and vanilla ice-cream! She would finish this even with a full stomach...

Dinner was really fulfilling there which took almost 3 hours! But it was fun! Chatting and chatting and chatting and eating and eating. All the unexpected jokes. Hee...she is one funny girl.

Thoughts

Ended up sleeping at 0530hrs this morning. Woke up at 0730hrs to prepare for work. Been listening to tons and tons of music. Some for different purposes. It's amazing how the preferences can be so diversified.

"Availability may provide leverage but not necessary an advantage."

Hmmm....unexpected familiar feeling....

The Missing Long Nights

The lack of seasons, the missing long nights.

It's 0430hrs. Should sleep soon.

Thinking: Hmmm....

Licence To Wed

Met the Extraordinary Gentlemen at Settlers Cafe (Katong) last night. Seems that the one in Clarke Quay may be slightly better. Probably because it is on the second level. But well. Played a couple of new games. We really wanted Ah Lau dead pointing the guns at him so many times. Hahaha...

Timing was too rush to catch the fireworks. I figured that the anticipated jam will make us rush, get stuck and just miss out on the actual fireworks. That would have made the mood lousier than knowing that we were not going at all. Could not have dinner there early since both of us had plans before the movie. So.......maybe should go catch the musical fountain instead. hahaha...

Caught Licence To Wed with goodest fren! Awww...I actually thought we were watching the show with the two guys pretending to be gay and getting married. That was Chuck & Larry! Hahaha, so I actually watched a different movie from my expectations. Anyhow, it started a little promising, then it became a little "trying too hard" to be funny. Not a great movie...but well...never know till you watch it for yourself! Maybe we should have gone KTV instead...hmmm...wonder if I need to get earplugs first :op

Went for lunch today with SJ & Reb, Matt, Pat & Grace. Ichiban Boshi! Matt treat again! Dunno why, but we appreciated it after he kept rejecting our offers to split the bill. Should have gone Kuishinbo then....wahahahaha....SJ & Reb were sharing their trip to Spain...Pat was sharing about his intention to go Japan...Matt & me were just eating :o) Why can't they focus on the main objective? :op

No nice jigsaw puzzles. I doubt I will be looking anymore for a while. Passion for fixing dropping for a while. Maybe when I really think of something to fill up that space just at bedside. I had to see that pair of NIKE shoes......does not help with Grace and Matt giving the various reasons why I should buy it. Shall resist it now until it keeps bugging me.......my reason to them is overspending for this month (like I care :op), so should wait till next payday. Then on thinking, that is tomorrow! Wahahahahahahaha..........

Work Attitude

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."
-- Colossians 3:23-24

Uppy Downy Uppy Week

This week went past pretty fast. Quite a number of things happening. Ups and downs and ups. And yet only within a week!

Anyhow, looks like the way ahead is going to see a number of changes. People moving ahead. Work scope moving ahead. Relationships moving ahead. I have a new goodest friend! Wahahaha...quite a dangerous one though...a lot of different attacking moves (and weapons)...

Suddenly everybody is looking for mahjong kakis. Hahaha...well, hope that means more chance to play the game. Trying to learn more different styles and flexibility.

Looks like I need to make some changes to travel plans. Might make a long one in the next month or two. Time to make some connections again...

Gingerbread Birthday!

Two groups of lunch kakis celebrated the birthday of Gingerbread (aka Jowin) today! By celebrating, they mean carving their own piece of nibbles from her cake! Never even sing her birthday song one!!! How can like that?!

Josh was determined to finish his cheesecake. I think it should be called The BlueWobbly Cheesecake. Wins said it reminds of the failed X-Men experiment. Just thinking about it is gross. Slimy... yucks! Siao Char Bor is smartest of whole group. Just order her vampire tea and then snacked off everyone's plates! Hmmm......picked on my food still keep saying why I don't dare to eat the section she robbed... "Why? I got sickness is it?"

Actually it was great fun that all of us went out. Though lunch is always a little too rushed. Maybe we can go for dinner together sometime. Tomorrow would be a good chance for a smaller group dinner after the badminton. Maybe East Coast Hawker Centre? I hope Josh remembers that badminton is played differently from tennis. Bet he will be tempted to throw the shuttlecock into the air and smash it over the net.

For a moment, did think about Alina "deserting" us. Just when we were all getting along! :o( I'm sure we'll keep in touch somehow, but just not the same. Will miss her giggling in the canteen. Hahaha... And I hope she is still considering getting me a friendship ring! Wahahaha...... my precious.........

Was a little late in pickup today due to some unforseen jam. Which also means that I was spared from one errand! Wahahahaha...would have gladly gotten it though. Next time should say earlier mah! (It's actually dangerous to offer freebies, might get a million arrows on my back! :op)

I'm a little surprised to see the effort to want to communicate more recently by the two of them with me. But it is a good thing. Maybe this will produce a fresher environment for a while.

In good spirits today lah..............should sleep well (again!)

My Defensive Good Friend

I am now sitting behind a defensive siao char bor. Suspecting a certain emotion I have or atmosphere I am trying to create for simple messages. Can see that she is struggling with entries into her blog. Probably as stress as trying to cramp all her notes into one single A4 piece of paper double-sided. I never knew of any humans reading font size 4 until she appeared.

Anyway, situation seems much better now after some "thrashing" out. I think it is good to communicate more. It would be crap to face a possible repeat of an entire lousy day. But somehow past few days were pretty.......stressful, uneasy...... basically felt there is a barrier of some sort.

Can't say I love the responses and the way they were put plainly to me, but at the same time feel better for the situation. Can breathe easier.

Asked more about NZ trip today. Probably get more information tomorrow from Ben. The idea of visiting the glacier seems good. Wonder if this will really happen. All depends on the others now...

Explanation Not Required

There was never a need to explain. I knew it all along.

But if not now, then maybe never.

A Walk To Remember

3 hours. The usual. Was out and about. Sat beside Pat & wife. Thought about some stuff. Saw and felt what I didn't like. How did it come to this? It was all bright and blue before and then now it seems like a drag. Should I do anything at all or leave it to be sorted? Just keep thinking I should be the one. Haiz. Made our separate ways since I was going to Bugis to get some stuff. I needed a walk.

It seemed like there was a purpose. I have not gone for a walk for a long time. It felt like I had an agenda. I kind of did anyway. The route was just way shorter this time. Somehow not willing for this to be the walk. Am surprised that I did make the detour to satisfy the craving. But it was not worth it at all. Felt worse. Crap. It's time for them to get fresher victims.

Got distracted to shop for a waist pouch while I was browsing. Did not get one, but ended up staring at that same pair again. I bet it is a female cut, though it looks unisex. No one served after 5 minutes. I walked out. No urge to pull me back, so maybe it's not a strong want. But I might not have a choice soon. Why did I have to think about all these within such a short period of time?

Supposed to get my contacts. Walked right into Time Club instead. One look. Two looks. Three looks. Walk away. Return look. Tried the white. Asked the variants. Tried the black. Decided on the white. Done deal in 5 minutes. What got into me? Not so sure. But something flashed when I browsed the top row. I remembered something. But I know I cannot be doing everything. Sometimes it irritates more than it impresses. Already it is inclining so.

Got a pretty good deal for the contacts from Eric. He serves patiently as usual. Visits there without Amelda is always shorter. Otherwise I have to wait for her to try out all the frames in that shop. Credit to her for being able to carry almost every single frame off though. And I bet I've gotten quite a number of good deals already. Have ruled Lasik out after long deliberation. Didn't like the strong reason why I should not do it. Crap. Felt lousy when it comes to this. So I guess I will be shopping for contacts now and then. Quite a number of activities are naturally filtered out. Like it or not.

Prawn Ultimatum tomorrow. Unexpected win.

Went for a run. A must. Because I cannot take it anymore. Even if it was in the rain and thunder. Felt it both sides. Thought I noticed one side. First thought "YOU ARE KIDDING ME". I guess there is a certain level of questioning even if I am not bothered somehow.

Don't feel good about it. I might just give up tomorrow. See how it goes.

Shopaholic?

I am not a usual shopper. Hardly spend on myself is probably not enough to describe. Rarely would be more appropriate. In cases where I finally decide to buy something, it is after long considerations. Of course, this means that I sometimes end up buying big ticket items (eg. house, car, camera, etc.)

So I am surprised that I actually spent $431 in a matter of two weeks. And not on a single expensive item. Not that I took long to think about buying the stuff too. I hope I do not turn into a shopaholic. Hahaha, though I just have to compare with Tingie and I should be well into the safety zone of thrifty :op

Anyway, I guess they are spent on stuff that I would use. So that should be a good justification. Holding back on buying the rollerblades does make it feel a little better. (Like real... think I just did not find a pair that I like). Aiyah, money is earned for spending anyway. As long as I am not spending more than I am earning, I should be safe! Saving seems on target anyway.

Funny how I think it is ok and go on trying to reason to myself that it is really ok. Spending a lot on myself is really not a norm...

Well, at least I am the proud owner of something that I bought in 5 minutes!

New Zealand

Let's go ahead with the New Zealand plan as scheduled then. I need some time to look into the itinery.

Yes, I really wish you to come along.

Magnet

My answer.

Opposite poles attract.

Character

To some, the determination of the breakdowns.
To some, the dependence through the breakdowns.

To some, the beginning of the bad times.
To some, the strength through the bad times.

That which moulds you and makes you, defines you.

Do you have what it takes?

Keukenhof Gardens

http://www.hort.wisc.edu/mastergardener/Features/botgardens/keukenhof/keukenhof.htm

Keukenhof Gardens.

Almost 7 years now and I have still not gone there. Plus the stories from Alison, Marijke and Da Jie. The photos I saw from Da Jie's album probably had the biggest draw factor. Even the website does not fully justify the magnificence of Keukenhof Gardens itself.

When would I go? The next? That trip?

Already got the stuff needed to go. Directions from Alison. One more push factor. It must be stronger than the memory.

You're Still You

Through the darkness

I can see your light

And you will always shine

And I can feel your heart in mine

Your face I've memorized

I idolize just you

I look up to

Everything you are

In my eyes you do no wrong

I've loved you for so long

And after all is said and done

You're still you

After all You're still you

You walk past me I can feel your pain

Time changes everything

One truth always stays the same

You're still you

After all You're still you

I look up to

Everything you are

In my eyes you do no wrong

And I believe in you

Although you never asked me to

I will remember you

And what life put you through

And in this cruel and lonely world

I found one love

You're still you

After all You're still you

PK vs SK

Connel appeared on newspapers again! As usual, using him as the drawing point for applicants to become OBS instructors. I am proud of him. After all these years, I would still say that he is my closest brother. I grew up with him since 1985, seen the bad (hahaha yes!) and the good side of him. We've been through a lot. I've seen him transform through the years. It's amazing when we look back and talk about how he used to be. It's a life testimony.

Crystal commented that Connel still looked the same after all these years. Heh, so do I. We don't age! *evil laughter* Forget about SK II. PK (courtesy of Prawnkid) is the best there was, best there is and best there ever will be. The secret better than the fountain of youth. Maybe should sell it to the highest bidder. But then again, marketing it might affect the sales of SK II. How can I be THAT evil? For their welfare, we'll keep that secret to ourselves :o)

PK vs SK.

PK win.

Perfect.

:op

Bourne Ultimatum

Just back from Bourne Ultimatum! Not too bad, about the same as the previous two, but not as impressive somehow. As usual, too smart to be true. At least parts 1 & 2 were fresh ideas in a sense. The fast action makes up for the usual plot.

Took two out of a three seater block. Debbie happily "lying" down on the other two chairs and super comfortable sia!

More movies coming up actually. I wonder if people budget for the number of movies they watch a year...

Rush Hour 3

Decided to go watch Rush Hour 3 today. With cabin crew of another airline this time! Wahahaha... Quite funny movie though it was pretty lame to include Jackie singing. Chris Tucker is funny as usual and the cab driver has got to be one of the better actors in there. It was nice, almost as good as the previous two.

Saw the trailer for Evan Almighty. I think that would be pretty good. Probably laugh the head off type.

Antress, we will catch a movie together definitely one of these days. Start planning to come to town!

The Long Walk

Is it time for the long walk yet?

Want?

What is it you want then?

The answer remains......

Should be in good hands. Can provide better also. True blessing and happiness!

The solitary print at the beach. The first rays. The brightening. Afresh?

Secret

Did not buy anything at the Tampines sale. Millions of people seemed to have gathered there though. Decided to catch Secret. First time watching movie with a cabin crew! Wahahaha...

Feelings were really strong especially from the beginning. They were even more direct than I thought I was. Honest with each other.

They can withstand the test of time.

Perfect Strangers

Quite a number of twists and turns, but not as complicated as Infernal Affairs, and yet I prefer the latter.

Looks like Halle Berry is trying very hard. I reckon she should stick to being Storm. Just can't do much else.

Rush Hour 3...hmmm....

Bourne Ultimatum....yes....

:o)

Whole day! :o)

Flash Point

Flash Point is quite a typical Donnie Yen movie. Seems back to basics though. Kind of following his older films, which is a little strange. Considering that he has considerable success with later movies. Nonetheless, his hip hop fighting is still a fresh difference from the dead pan fighting of Jet Li.

Some parts of the show were pretty disgusting though. The brutality of it. We both cringed at certain points. yucks.

Gotta go sleep and wake up in 2.5 hours for the wedding. I bet I will be more tired than the bridegroom as usual.

Gone Shopping

Just saw Gone Shopping with Tingie. I suspect that the show has way deeper meaning than it is meant to show. Not sure how others see it, but my mind seems to run on another parallel during the whole movie. I seem to know what is going to happen next in the scene before it happens.

Only one significant moment in the show that lingers in my mind. The giving by the head security to the girl. It was emo in that instant with a couple of thoughts flashing through my head simultaneously. A sort of identity in a different perspective.

Anyway, it was great company with Tingie as usual. Same habit of laughing her head off about everything. She must have a really strong neck to keep that head on. And to even suggest a buffet!!! She really is pretty confident of her savaging/whalloping/food-vacuuming skills ever since her stint in France. Looks like a "reservist" for her in France too somemore.

We exchanged some views about her issues. I felt like I was sitting there and listening to myself at the same time. Where do all these things that I say come from? Why do I feel like I am an audience to my own presentation there and then?

Hmmmm.........lost in road directions is understandable. She looked so lost in Mustafa too! Hahaha...

Daydreaming

Is life fair?

At certain points along life's journey, such a question will pop up in the thinking mind. That's when we remember all the bad stuff that happened and go OF COURSE NOT! If it is fair, why this and why that? Start getting frustrated and vivid memories of unfair personal situations creep in and start getting agitated. Why should I be the one to get all these or to go through all these?

Then there is the calm.

The better things come along into the head. It's not so bad. After all, there are quite a number of good things happening and generally there are quite a number of happy people around. Personal benefits and the little nice things that happened come back to mind. Awww....maybe it is not so bad huh? We just think too much about things and think too negatively.

Sometimes we use the bad stuff to remind us that not everything is rosy all the time and we have to be strong. And then we also try to use the good stuff to pacify ourselves that the world is not so bad. Contradicting whether we are trying to be put ourselves down for being too optimistic or trying to brighten up the thoughts before it gets too negative.

The thinking goes round and round and we never get any much further than where we started thinking. But time has passed and we just idled away. Hehehe.........it just happens.

Some people call it daydreaming.

The Journey

Today begins the journey and the campaign. Start of investigation. Request for statement. Submission tomorrow. One hearing. Then await the outcome.

Nobody should question my integrity and get away with it.

Finding The Missing Understanding

We should have talked about it earlier. Crap. Spoilt our entire day! Hahaha...

But glad we are now.

This better not repeat again!!! Not worth spoiling our days for........

愛很簡單

Sincerity In Simplicity.

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

i love you
无法不爱着你
说你也爱我
i love you
永远不愿意
baby
失去你

不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......

i love you
我一直在这里
一直在爱你
i love you
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do
i love you

Friend

Final thought. I dedicate this to all that I consider my friends.

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."

-- Elbert Hubbard

What Really Matters

"What we really are matters more than what other people think of us."

-- Jawaharlal Nehru

Happiness

"Happiness is not a station you arrive at, but a manner of travelling."

-- Margaret Lee Runbeck

Misunderstood

Felt misunderstood because words can sometimes fail in expression. Feel lousy.

Do people really believe you when they say they do? How do you tell? Maybe there is a way. Maybe there is not. It does not really matter. I rather believe they do. Because sometimes life was never meant to be so complicated. It became so when we added the "ingredients".

Thought pattern has significantly changed since the knowledge. Different perception. Progression? Maturing? Changed?

Thinking night. To the beach?

How I wish it came earlier.

Where are you when I needed you?

It's never going to be the same like before.

How many and who in the end?

Confirmed Status

Got the letter to confirm my PES E1L9 effective from 11 July 2007.

Wonder how that will change my recall status. I've been with the guys for so long. I hope I won't be posted somewhere else.

Knocked Up

Saw Knocked Up with Debbie. Hilarious movie. I was laughing my head off literally at some of the segments.

"Debbie is a freak of nature!" *turns and look at Debbie*

Just too bad that someone in the movie shares the same name sometimes :op

I kind of liked the underlying message in the movie. Well, the underlying message might be different for different people. Despite how people may seem to be, change is not impossible. It's a choice that an individual has to make. Not knowing what to do does not mean the end of the world. With determination and patience, impossible may turn to possible.

Some people just need certain events in their lives before they "wake up". What matters is how you move ahead.

Integrity Check

Was it an integrity issue?

Real Epidemic?

So that's the reason for the "epidemic" at the training centre. It was just a reason as I guessed.

I will stand up and be counted. I'm don't think I was ever called to live in the shadows.

He knows what the future holds.

Epidemic?

Thought it was one combined paper, but was given two separate exams instead. Anyway, aced both papers. Seems that it helped when I fell asleep through revision and my head was resting directly on my notes. Wahahahaha... Need to revise the rest of the information to prepare for next lesson. This course really works us hard if we really want to learn maximum from it.

Some supposed epidemic in the training centre and we were told to clear out after lunch. So I get the afternoon off! Good weather to sleep. Gotta do some revision later in the night. But maybe give in to An Qi's jio-ing tonight first. That queen..........

If I get another SMS from the instructor later, it means super long weekend! Hope the phone beeps soon :op

Study

Studying hard for the exam tomorrow!

The first of ten exams in six weeks...

Number of exams seems to be increasing from my last expectation....argh....

The New Driver!

Congratulations Mr Connel Loh :o)

I'm proud of you!

At least you did not have to use the trick I taught you about bringing Josiah along for the test.

Wahahahaha....

Yes Heng Kah, please go to Hong Kong for a short trip. At least I can claim credit for helping your wife persuade you :o) I did not go because I don't wanna miss your wedding! So now you should go on my behalf!

Found The Redbean!

Found the Redbean! Have not seen her for a while now. Had a good time catching up though she was trying hard to confuse me with the complicated tree of how all the people she knew were connected.

Went shopping for a dress (or two) for her to be bridesmaid. Amazing that we could not find anything in Plaza Singapura or Vivo City! All the more surprising in her case because she was one of the fastest shopper that I ever knew.

Think I am getting more used to ladies' brands than males!!! Hmmm.....

What Guys/Girls Notice

Attended the wedding of Tiang Ping and Hwee Koon. Heh. Still have not gotten the wedding invitation card proper because we never got to meet. My fault actually, but I appeared anyway.

The couple gave a speech during the church wedding to thank their parents. Touching moments.

Tiang Ping thanked her parents for raising her up so beautifully. Hwee Koon thanked his parents for raising him up a fine man. Martin and me agreed that was a perfect example that girls look at character while guys look at looks. Hahaha...not everyone is like that though, just so happen that the scenario "seemed" so :op

Met Amelda after quite some time. We've both been disappearing. Have to arrange the chicken rice feast someday. Matthew gave us a treat for no reason! :o)

Harry Potter

Saw Harry Potter with Debbie. Normally I try to catch all previous episodes before watching a sequel. Strangely I did not do it for Harry Potter. Though I think I did catch the previous ones on the plane.

But anyhow, the movie does follow the book quite a bit. So if I did not read the book, I might not know what is happening at various points. A little disappointed by the movie adaptation. Think the storybook is better.

We seem to be the only ones laughing at some points of the movie too. Everyone else did not share the same kind of humour I suppose.

Hmmm, think I will go get the final book and read it for completeness.

Debbie reminded that we are going out on 20/07/2007. Nice numbers...

Trust = The Colour Of Love?

信任 = 爱情的颜色？

I learnt this song quite some time back. Some probably heard me in KTV. I like it because it is meaningful. Communication is essential between two partners.

我想了很久该如何说

有一些困惑在心里头

我们都努力交换了感受

但始终还觉得了解的不够

因为你的笑所以快乐

因为你沉默所以失落

所有的想法都跟你说

我还是从你眼中看到了保留

是缘份让我们相遇又选择相守

虽然你我的世界有些不同

我想给你我所有

为什么还有心事不能说

快告诉我你还想要什么

快告诉我还能为你做些什么

如果相爱的两个人

没有信任该如何

因为你的笑所以快乐

因为你沉默所以失落

所有的想法都跟你说

我还是从你眼中看到了保留

是缘份让我们相遇又选择相守

虽然你我的世界有些不同

我想给你我所有

为什么还有心事不能说

快告诉我你还想要什么

快告诉我还能为你做些什么

如果相爱的两个人没有信任

爱情就失去了颜色

快告诉我你还想要什么

快告诉我还能为你做些什么

如果相爱的两个人

没有信任(我们)该如何

相爱两个人没有信任

爱情就失去了美丽的颜色

Keep On Waiting

I got it. One shot, one kill.

Now to keep on waiting.

Not long now... hopefully...

Surprise

Surprisingly insane actions...

Cupboard

I got my very own absolute personal cupboard in my very own private room today! It's an authentic "cannot find anywhere else" cupboard purchased back in 1976! Fancy having a cupboard as old as myself :o)

Not complaining about getting a hand me down. It is in absolute condition. Anything that is kept by my mum will be in mint condition. So stop asking me why I don't seem to age as time passes!!! You have to ask my mum!!! Maybe she feeds me with something every night that she sprays on all these stuff...hmmm...I remember drinking some liquid and I knock out every night...

Anyhow, the room looks different now for sure! After trying to pack it for the past 4 years plus, it looks like a different kind of mess now! Woohoo! Have to make it better soon. Need to study soon aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh............

Opera

http://prawnkid.blogspot.com/2007/04/opera.html

Found it again. Working link.

Parachute Band

http://myspace.com/parachuteband

It's been 10 years since Parachute Band started in 1996. Now in year 2007, they over to a new generation. The sound and style is pretty different, especially since the lead is a male now. I think I will get the new CD when it is out. Omega Levine...fuzzily funky male lead. You'll love him.

Some words from Wayne Huirua to the new generation Parachute Band:

"My greatest piece of advice is for you is that it is absolutely necessary for you to become worshippers. Worship will enable you to hear from God. Worship will enable you to trust God. Worship will enable you to obey God when you need to. When He takes you through those things, He will give you those ears to hear and a heart to obey Him."

Best I Ever Had by Vertical Horizon

Break from packing the slums with music blasting away DEFINITELY. It's kind of a part of my life, but strangely I do not possess a MP3 player or load my phone with tons of music. But in my room, or car, that's it. I can do without TV, but music no way... (I think)

Loving live music allows me to accept cover versions, so perhaps not so true fan of originals like many others. There are songs that I love covers more than originals. Heard Vertical Horizon from my compilation and kind of like Best I Ever Had at the moment.

A search in youtube for the original MTV came up with something else! I would applaud this guy if I heard him live. He is good in my opinion.

Study

Going on course soon for 6 weeks. Time to get the brain cranking again. Started reading up on part 1 again yesterday. Dry and theoretical chapter 1 was really hard to go by. The fruits helped a little (but where is the fruits buffet I was promised? :op)

Can't even figure how I managed to score in part 1 a year ago, but I guess it was a pretty simple test. (As usual, there are tips and such.) So this is going to be 8 exams, even with oral and practical!! (When was the last time that happened to me?!)

Back to study...

(Think I am going to knock out soon at this rate)

Run!

Just came back from run. Feel good. Bathed and relaxed now. Shiok!

MIO

Seems like MIO is not explained properly when it is installed for subscribers. Have heard quite a number of complaints from some friends on it and something just seemed to not work well.

Helped the champion Debbie fixed it with loopback, problem solved.

Whatever it is, do not cut the telephone connection for the house. Multiple phone connections in the house can only be done with multiple MIO boxes or multiple subscribed lines is untrue.

IKEA Tampines

Went IKEA Tampines with Tingie. Nice Swedish meatballs and chicken wings! And better not trust Tingie when she says just order 6 chicken wings!

The place seems bigger than the one in Queensway, but feels like it just has more walking space. I do not seem to feel that there are more things to shop around. Quite a huge area allocated to DIY products too.

Product that I noted was DAIM sweets that was sold under the banner DIAM BAG. Was recommending it to Tingie. Wahahaha.....have a DIAM bag! :op

Just when I thought that was quite a fantastic gimmick, there came the 3-chest drawers. It was called ANEBODA. Really "NO COURAGE" ah!

Guess we will have to go to normal furniture shops to look for her wardrobes and other stuff. Sounds like one big project for her to do. Though I seriously doubt her estimates for the room dimensions. Hmm.....she might have to sleep outside the window.

Think it is worth checking out GIANT though. It is HUGE! (At least the company brand hints that anyway).

Thoughts

Tens... Hundreds... Thousands... Millions... Trillions... Feels like overflowing...

Vulnerability exposed

The signs are showing more than expected... The actions are happening more than expected...

It's going to paint a picture that I do not like. Gotta stop. Gotta breathe. Gotta think. Again.

Unsure? Lost? Unwilling? Denial? Fear.

I better not push it. Irritation is the worst catalyst.

How now?

Little by little one step at a time...

Broke

I broke the decision after years at a moment of impulse. Already did not feel good after a while. Disgusting. Only redemption was becoz I decided to do it for someone. So I guess it is worth. The decision should stay. This will be the last hopefully...or at least for the longest time.

I will not break it even on that day......if that day ever comes......

07/07/07

Special date for a lot of people.

I finally did it today.

Not excited. Surprising?

It's gonna be a prized possession though.

I am one step nearer.

Some areas still lacking. What????

Feeling

The same kind of fear for the last few days. Not very good. It can't wait. This week will have to be it. It's not worth feeling the same way walking down that path all the time.

Discipline

Drive

Determination

Desperation?

Today is supposed to be a happy day for lots of people with the receipt of bonus. I don't even monitor my monthly paycheck. So I guess it is no surprise that I won't know until people around me were talking about it. Not monitoring finance or being bothered about getting $$$ has nothing to do with whether a person have too much money or not really. I would be happy if the reason was so simplistic. Mindset can be changed with some effort. Finance is archived and viewed differently in me. (Probably for many other things too.)

Level of significance is not proportional to the ease of exploitation.

Life

Resign to it. Give up on it. Enjoy it to the fullest. Make the best of it. What comes...comes.

Same gift, different experience.

Some have it and want to end it. Some are ending it and want to prolong it. If only they could exchange? Irony.......irony........and it is not just a Swatch series.....

What do you want me to say to you? You already chose your own path and yet you are unhappy about it. What about those that did not get to choose? And I'm expected to say stuff that people expect me to say. Whatever happen to "say your mind"?

Expectations

Suddenly thought about it and stuck in those thoughts for a while. Need to ask some hard questions to find out more. It seems my mental expectations were pretty high and yet practically I did not feel very disturbed knowing such information.

Maybe that is why some people choose not to know everything. The lesser you know, the lesser the expectations. However, innocence might not equate bliss. It might always be a time bomb.

But what happens when all is known? Do things stay the same? Perceptions change with the amount of information available. How important is perception if it is ever-changing then?

The beauty of life is the journey. The lack of it makes even the bad parts worth.

Queen

Queen....the band! Meant this post for Germz actually...she loves Queen. Ha! They did quite a good version of Queen here.

Stomp

Redbean

Just where are you?

Game

Atom gave me a modular power supply. It was that damn good. So my system is up again and I can blog. Managed to logon to Club 7 for a brief while too. I guess I am not that easily wiped off from the team yet.

Electrician coming for more major work on the power supply and also a possible TV point in my room. After more than four years of not watching TV, I wonder if I will get used to start. But well, it is definitely a good time to start packing everything proper and even sorting out my HDD. I have been living in a mess for too many years.

Really need to stop procrastinating about everything.

I must and I will want to make a decision on Saturday!!!

Wedding of the Bears

Woke up late! Stomach upset! Mark had to come and fetch me! Ha! Almost got into an accident too. We were surprisingly cool about it. There would have been no chance against a bus. But we were watched by a higher One.

Pretty exciting morning to help Matthew get to his bride! I think the most most difficult part had to be asking us to draw. My art is down the pits. It would have failed primary school art class. But we somehow managed through.

Drove around in his Aveo. Think I still prefer Swift Sports. Ha! Maybe I go test drive again on Saturday. Hmmm, hope it is not that old man serving me again. Boring chap.

Solemnization at an outdoor pavilion and a wonderful dinner. The groom cried! I could feel the emotions from where I was sitting. There are some things that cannot be expressed by words. His mum was easily the happiest person around. I'm sure he'll notice it from some of the photos. I could see it from my brief greetings with her.

So....in the words of the rest of the brothers.....two of us left to get hitched. There must be a "blind" girl out there for me. Or is there? But that may not be the point really......

Transformers

Transformers! Wow...definitely a blast compared to the cartoon series. The effects would have made you think back to the days when you were young and never thought it possible. What you see on the screen would only happen in your dreams!

A little disappointing that they changed the characters to be somewhat different from their original in the cartoon. Megatron is a little too powerful too. But Optimus Prime finishing off Bonecrusher had to be the coolest yet. Almost like Voltron using sword.

Had to almost explain some of the stuff to Debbie...hahaha, but at least she still liked the movie. So not too bad. I would have felt guilty if she was bored by it!

Yet to catch Fantastic Four.........

Hot Fuzz

Saw Hot Fuzz with Anne. First meet! Wahahaha...think she wanted to confirm if I was really a small boy? Ha! Anyway, so she does not believe my theory of using SK II to look young.

Hot Fuzz is a British movie. Funny! I liked Lock, Stock & Two Smoking Barrels and also Snatch. So, this was an addition to that type of movie. Heh. Was tempted to buy Transformers instead though, but I think Anne would not like it. Not her type :op

Japanese

http://prawnkid.blogspot.com/2007/04/japanese.html

Now I found it somewhere else!! Hehehe...so the link is not broken anymore! :o)

Thinker

Thinkers often get misunderstood for being negative, lonely, in need of sympathy, over sensitive, etc...

But their nature is actually lonesome. Hmm, not exactly lonely, but alone.

The train of thought (actually multiple trains in a short period of time) is not exactly the same as the usual. They ask questions to clarify certain facts and information, but not necessary to derive towards an expected conclusion.

Who will understand?

Is there a thinker out there who is the same?

Beginning to sound like a different species of existence...

Frankfurt

Found some pictures that I took from Frankfurt...

Bachelor's Night!

It's Heng Kah's bachelor night!!! Woohoo......the last weekend as a bachelor.....hehehe...all my friends were asking if we had just food and drinks, without doing anything to him! Though some of us did think of throwing him into the water...forcing him to get drunk and cab home instead of driving...but it seems that most people will ask if a stripper was engaged to sabotage the "victim"! Hmmm.......

Mabbe that should be left to the actual day. Wahahaha....I might not get out of the wedding alive...

Anyway, ten of us were there and it's at Dempsey! So, my second time back there. Quite nice place to chit chat and laugh our heads off. So one more week and it's way to go man!

Some of us headed for more supper after, while others went back. Then I realised this is the first time we came out as a group of ten, each with their own vehicle. Wahseh, that is quite a record for us. Almost a gang :op

Argh...the pictures were not very clear...guess I will not be putting them up.

Helios News!

News from Helios!

The arrival of Gisele Lee! Ah....unique name for his kid again....Vianne and Gisele...nice!

Think I should meet him sometime soon. Have not seen him for the longest time now. Should do it before Samantha gives birth too! Looks like everyone is contributing to the usage of country space...

Now I wonder what DVDs did I tell him to help me buy.........I seem to be asking a million people to help and I never remember.....hope it is not something that I already have!

Free Lunch!

Woah! It seems that they pay for all our lunches! hiak hiak hiak hiak

Frankfurt

Today began the five day course on working using the route planning software. It's a good thing that I was using it for a while before I came for the course. It is definitely not something for a brand new beginner! Pretty tough to understand everything until I start to practise more on it. Good thing there is no exam for this. I wonder if I will pass!!! That would come for the course from mid July. Looks like I really got to buck up and study quite a bit...

Class of seven people. That is quite good actually. The smaller the class, the easier to concentrate. At least the instructor do not have to go around answering each and every single question. Two from Holland, two from Doha and two others from Croatia. Seems quite an international mix. Considering that they are working at those places, not necessary from that country itself.

I was surprised that the lady from Croatia actually flew as a stewardess for some time! That explains the looks (and sitting beside me!) wahahaha......how am I supposed to concentrate? But well, it was nice to see that companies do allow people to move around and try the different areas though.

Contemplating whether to subscribe to internet. Half guessing that it will become an issue when it comes to claims, though it should never have been (well, at least never used to be)... Things are so different these days... Really cannot judge a person by their cover... How true...

Friends

Compliment or Criticism

"You chose to help others..."

Used to compliment and criticize me in the same conversation. That's just the way it is as far as where this conversation was going. Nowhere.......as expected.

But well, there are better things in life.

I finally found the reason for living

It's in giving every part of my heart to Him

In all that I do, every word that I say

I'll be giving my heart just for Him, for Him!

Status Change

Just back from medical review at unit medical centre. Mandatory to have a medical review for referral to medical board. It was over in 5 minutes. I will be medical boarded in absence sometime in July.

Recommended status : E1L9

I would gladly be status A to remove the cause though...

Tonsilitis or Dengue?

Started at 3+am on Monday. Still went to work for the full day. Sometimes you just wanna try to do a little more. Had a good time relaxing on the evening. Came home and measured 38.1 degrees. Great, now I have high fever.

Still went to work this morning. Eyes were burning, head was bursting and body was breaking. Would see the doctor in a while, and then I was called in to complete the appraisal. Did raise one or two sentences on my views and listened to his side of the story. Heard some unbelievable things for the first time in my life. Then I knew there was no point proceeding. Just nodding to everything that was said and left the room. I will ask myself if I am still happy here at the end of August/September.

Went to see doctor after. Still measuring 38.1 degrees! Argh! Glands swollen, tonsils swollen, viral infection. If this does not subside by Thursday morning, I have to go back for a review. If the tonsils develop pus (gross), then I have tonsilitis. If I still have fever, then I need a blood test to check for dengue.

I seem to get the full works these days..............

Solitude

Solitude In The Midst Of Many

在无数中的独自

Words of Wisdom from the Barber

Always loved shorter hair. So much cooler and definitely easier to maintain. For a person with no clue on how to style his hair, this is the easiest.

For some reason, the barber decided to share his words of wisdom to me today.

*haircut complete*

*remove cover sheet*

Barber:

Next time, you should keep your moustache and not shave.

Prawnkid:

Heh. Why?

Barber:

You look too young lah.

Prawnkid:

Oh....look young good mah (everyone says that)...

Barber:

Wait girl molest you ah...

*tickle myself to fake laugh*

Prawnkid:

...

Bee Gees Come Back Tour...................................you win again....so many times......

Confrontation - Part 1

Only had time for part 1. Just as expected, nothing he can do about the system. Therefore, conformance opted.

Confirmed. Pretty clueless about what I do.

This is the year of spamming.

Slacker....

Dun understand how there can be such slackers.....I know of people who procrastinate or inefficient or just unable to comprehend and of coz those who are much better than me.......but to see slackers.....I think they really need to buck up......I'm amazed at how they just slack through......

I admit that I choose to slack over weekends or whenever I have free time. But that is like a choice to chill and relax.....but some people just give you the feeling that they have been pampered all their lives.....if I see people feeding them, I think I will freak out. That would be ultimate slacker of the millenium.

Shrek 3

Just came back from watching Shrek 3 with Yiling. It was so-so only, nothing much to crave about.

Good thing that I caught the Transformers trailer again. Nice. A pity that they might have to change some of the machines due to practicality of building them though.

Should sleep soon. Badminton tomorrow. Something to look forward to after office hours :o)